Skin Irritation

1st of all,this post's language will be damn cacated n informal. hope u understand xD

so,2day my dad bought me to a relative's house makan lunch. be4 i get into the story,let me describe the house 1st. it's my relative's new house n they hosted an open house. the house is a bangalo...triple story(see voca cacated)...gt swimming pool...design not tat nice in my eyes. OK...enuf of bs. let's begin the story.

so during the time i took my lunch,i felt skin irritation on my chest n neck. my aunt asked me why so red 1...i pun cakap nth n go garu garu it. at 1st i thought is becoz my shirt tat cause skin irritation...but tat shirt i've been wearing since last year CNY. so,prediction not acceptable.

went home...the irritation went through my whole upper body. i keep garu garu it until it's RED HOT(means it's f-ing gatal). my dad asked me go sleep a while 1st see will be better or not...but of coz no la.

so at night,mum brought me go jumpa doktor la. doktor cakap lu sakit mana(i swear he said tat to me),so i pun cakap sakit (ahem)...ceh...jkjk. told him i felt skin irritation. so he asked me to show my red hot sexy body...ahaha. then he told me 90% is because sea food,i said i din eat much but he said eat a bit also can be serious,jadi saya pun speechless. n guess wat's next? he said......HE'S GONNA TAKE INJECTION ON MY BUTT AKA MY ASS.

tell u seriously...WTF IT'S SO F-ING PAIN MF.

so finished injection,ambil ubat,balik kampung.

p.s. i told u it's f-ing informal n the language is cacated kan?
p.s. hope u guys understand.

BB

这段时间还是得过的 =）

时间是帮得上忙，可是也是一种折磨。

因为时间会不断地让回忆重现。

心是无法承受的。

但无论如何，这段时间, 还是得过的。

p.s. thx a lot for the consolation. xD

Finally I work my lazy ass out

The whole holidays I have been talking to exercise myself up so that I could be in the best shape for next year basketball tournament. But what I din expect is I only started all these TODAY!!!

It's hard to challenge my laziness really. My dad work up at 7 morning everyday to jog at Pandan Lake Club,a challenge for me to follow suit as I need to wake up at 7,which is a bit unchallengeable for a student who is enjoying his hols. Morever,I've been sleeping late playing computer games. So,obviously it's very hard to work my lazy ass out.

It was also a surprise that I managed to wake up at 7 today because I played computer games till 2a.m. today,plus I've having problems to sleep easily lately because my mind is distracted,so I guess I slept around 3 something today. But nevertheless,I WOKE UP. ==

So,I went to wash my face be4 out to PLC. Before we(my dad and I) went,I have problem picking a shoe to jog. I dun have a jogging shoe,so without the fear of shamefulness,I wore my school shoe to jog there.

Well,it's pointless to eloborate what I did besides jogging thr. So,I will summarize it:

1st round,walked all the way with dad(my dad walked quite fast too ==). Saw 1 kid fall down with his bike becoz of wet grass.
2nd round,ran 1/2 be4 slowing down to walk,now I realised how much more work need to be done to be fit...after the run,never run again and I just walked all the time I jogged thr.
3rd round,walked lo...BUT I realised 1 old fella...around in his 60s...have been running nonstop since I started to jog. That old fella is f-ing fit...omg.

Well,I guess that's all. I seriously hope I can continue what I did 2day morning consistently coz consisten work need to done in order to get really fit.

p.s. so random this post eh?

BB

How romantic are you quiz? I gt 64% wtf

You appear to have a well-balanced romantic self. While you may get flutters in your stomach when you meet someone you are very attracted to, you do not let your romantic-self entirely dictate how you proceed. You will ask yourself if there is a chance this relationship will work before allowing yourself to fall in love. Even if you feel a romantic connection is viable from a practical sense, you will not just allow yourself to be swept away.

You do not have many illusions about love. While you may feel a very deep attachment to someone, you know love rarely conquers all. You know successful relationships take work and compromise and a desire by those involved to make their relationship work. Candlelight dinners and words of endless love may be nice, but they don't pay the bills or get the dishes washed.

The middle ground on the romanticism scale is neither entirely safe nor entirely lackluster. However it does not carry the weight of a romantic failure based upon being swooped off your feet. Nor is the middle ground so devoid of romanticism that you feel like you are living with a sibling. Also, there is quite a bit of evidence that with your outlook on romanticism your relationship has a very good chance of succeeding.

Smile and Laugh

Why I din think of this?

I din realise that how effective a smile and a laugh can actually cure sorrowness. I guess it's the best besides time. xD

I did smile and laugh though. But I'm just smiling and laughing how naive I am. =(

Guess I have to really learn how to smile and laugh...OH! Talking about SMILE and LAUGH...I suddenly miss Gwen! T_T

爱谁？

爱自己，却会变得自私。
爱你所爱的人，却会对自己残酷。

在这种情况，你会选择爱谁？

当天真遇上残酷

一个天真的人，会觉得他所生活的世界是如此的美好。但他却没想到，当他遇上某件残酷的事情时，他会如此地不堪一击。如果没有一颗坚强的心，他根本无法能够接受那残酷的事情所带来的伤痛。

无可否认，时间是最好的医生。时间能治疗所有的创伤。但有没有想过，时间并不能在最需要的时候为极度受伤的心灵治疗。时间所施的是慢性治疗，只有随着岁月的流逝，才能够真正地完全治疗好那受伤的心灵。

当天真的人无法逞受那伤痛时，他会很渴望地寻找最快速的疗方，以治疗他那粹落的心。那疗方是天真的疗方。虽知那是行不通的，但他已别无选择，为求的只是能捱过那难过的关。其他的人会觉得他很傻或很执著，但他却是情势所逼的。

怀念

今天不知道为什么，身体觉得很沉重，心情觉得很郁闷，于是便决定去骑骑脚踏车。原本只是想到家外疏疏筋骨，但没想到我却去寻找了一些消失已久的回忆。

骑到学校附近的一些地方，那些消失已久的回忆渐渐浮现在脑海里。学校放学时学生们经常走的走廊、SBU那里的T字路、九里香、公园......这些地方曾发生过似普通的事，现在却变成让我极度怀念的回忆。

骑到累后，便决定到那公园去歇一会儿。我记得这里曾发生过许多事情，但脑子里却对这边最陌生。可是久而久之，怀念的心情却带动着脑子慢慢地找回那些回忆。真的好怀念噢！

这时雨却下了起来。不知到为何我并没有意志要赶快骑回家，明知在下着雨，却还慢吞吞地。怎知雨却没下大。在我缓慢的速度一直到家的路途中，雨势还是一样地没变大。

这场小雨代表什么呢？是要我清醒还是为我哭泣？或许我想太多了吧！这只不过是一场雨啊！但它却为我的心情带来一些惆怅感。

无奈

心中有难愈的伤痕，

觉得很无奈。

心中有种无法自拔的痛，

觉得很无奈。

无法忘掉那似美好却又伤心的回忆，

觉得很无奈。

独自一人沉落在那伤痛的心灵，

觉得很无奈。

我......
还能怎样？

Kurang ajar punya TC xD

let the story begins! xD

My mum chinese aren't that well,so she asked me to write some words for her.

Mum: eheh son...write a word for me.

*then i write for her*

Mum: it's like tat meh? (she's doubting the word i wrote for her it's correct or not)
Me: eh...how long has i been learning chinese?
Mum: eheh...i learned chinese till form 5 leh...u still only form 3 standard.
Me: ya rite...what's ur result for BC in form 5?
Mum: (paiseh) I failed.
Me: AHAHAHAHAHA ==

haha...pauline! i understand the feeling now by challenging ur parents in their exam...it's so fun! xD

I love my handphone even more now!!! xD

GOSH! I can't believe how lucky I was for this. It's so darn fucking lucky!

2day,I went to play basketball in a court near my house with my brother. And guess wat? I left my handphone in the court!!! aka I LOST MY HP IN THE COURT!!!

I realised it just now and stunt. I straight away zoom to the court hoping to find my hp back. And I FOUND IT!!! haha...when I found my hp,I keep laughing at myself,till my throat pain now. AHAHAHAHAHA

AND after I came back,I checked facebook how lucky I am 2day...it's 96%!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahahahahahahaha...it should have been 100 eh?

OH MY PHONE...I LOVE U...SAYANG MUAHX! xD

Mess cleaned up part I

After all sorts of nagging from my mum,I finally work my lazy ass out to clean up the mess I created to my room,my bro's room and the guest room. Not really fully clean up actually. Just part 1. Still need part 2 to fully clean up the mess.

So,these is the things I decided to throw it off(recycle) and reasons:
1. All exam papers,notes relating to sejarah,geografi,maths,kh,seni,pj,sivik,moral.
Reason:
won't be taking geo or kh for SPM anyway,so no point keeping.
sej n maths i considered myself too GOOD,so just keep the importants 1 n leave out all the BS
wat for keeping seni,pj,sivik n moral exam papers? bye bye to them.
2. All exercise booklet relating to sej,geo,maths,kh and science.
Reason:
nth much bout sej,geo,maths,kh. for science,i just don't think the exercise booklet is important. so,see ya!
3. All the jilids work book by Pusat Tuisyen Martin.
Reason:
just pure BS.
4. All the kertas conteng,surat makluman from school
Reason:
just useless
5. All books,papers relating to Komsas,Literature,Novel about BM,BI for PMR
Reason:
won't be studying back all those BS for SPM anyway,delighted to say goodbye to them. ahaha

Anyway,not just that. Thr's something I dunno what to do with them. Any opinions?
1. All the text books relating to Komsas,Literature,Novels,Maths,Science,Sej,Geo,KH,moral,sivik,pj...should i donate all these to school or recycle for money?
2. All text books relating to BM,BI n BC...should i keep these or donate to school or recycle?
3. All exam papers relating to BM,BI,BC and science...should i keep for reference or recycle it for money?
4. All revision books relating to Sej,Geo,KH...should i find someone to sell it(if gt ppl want) or recycle it for money?
5. All reference books relating to Komsas,Literature,Novels...same...sell it or recycle it?

The big headache is that I need to rearrange all the importants notes about BM n BI from another tuition of mine,Minda Ceria. All these notes is considered to be important for me but all those are in a mess and I'm thinking how to rearrange it in an ordinary ways.

And another small matters in consideration. Should I keep all those books,notes relating to BC. Most probably I might be taking BC for SPM. I dunno wat to do with it now. Mayb see the SPM format for BC 1st then only decided ba.

I guess that's all for this 1. Stay tune to LTC's mess cleaned up part II. Gd bye. xD

I miss everything that had happened between me and her

I couldn't hold it. I felt so lonely without her in my life anymore.

I went to read her blog,each and every post in the past about me. It's like watching a sweet movie for me. I felt happy when I read it because I can feel how much she love me last time. It feels like I had stepped back in time,being so happy during that time with her. But I realised myself that it's just a dream,a memory. And tears started to flow down my face.

Mixed feelings:

Happy because those memories will kept 4ever in my life

Sad because all those memories is just in the past and it will not happen to me anymore.

This post is dated on

15 November 2009,6.05p.m.

Study adi!? R u kidding me!?

I've been thinking what to blog about besides my stupid feelings,finally I successfully korek some ideas out of my brain. =)

haha...ya...started tuition for Form 4 adi...not kidding u guys. PTM...Physics and Add Maths. What I rmb most is that when the physics teacher came in,he asked well,y we guys so rajin now already start tuitioning? must be kia shu(scare to lose) gang. ahaha...lols. not forget to mention tat the physics teacher is really a sissy man!

gosh! form 4 sej is crazy lo! it's like u're reading essays. n the chapters about the european is quite interesting n then the last chapter bout ekonomi of TM during british reign is so darn boring wei!

well,i guess tat's all i can crap it out.

p/s i felt it was pointless to post this half-way i wrote it,but nevertheless i choosed to finish it,at least i did something nice to my blog rather than spreading all stupid nonsense feelings of mine to my blog. sayang u bloggy! xD

When you decided you wanted to leave me
I didn't say much
Just treated you as you were free

So many times I wanted to pull back
Intense begging was of no use
Just treated it as loneliness

Because I can understand
His kindness was a kind of release for you
Just honestly tell me
Who do you love the most?

Actually you really love him
As my punishment
Saying you didn't think of him
was pitying me, right?

I already don't have any excuses
I can only let go
I don't dare demand you
to say you love me

Actually you really love him
Is he really gentle?
Actually you really miss him
Just say it

I already don't want to say too much
I cover my ears
Don't want to hear you say again
that you really love him

Can you control what you dream?

I don't what this means. I've been having dreams about the same person since last Saturday,either sweet one or heartbreaking one,but none of them bring any good to me.

Can someone control what he/she dreams about? If yes,I think I still can't let go...YET. But if no,I really don't know why.

I've been feeling better since Saturday. But all these dreams just kept me reminding of that person. FUCK

Can the I-dunno-who just stop letting me dreams about it!? T_T

That's it.

What a day. Today is Halloween of 2009...and this day will haunt me forever in my life.

I felt like my life has gone. I don't know how to find it back at this very moment.

At one point in my relationship with her,I felt like I'm completely owned by her and she too had the same feeling. But it never was. It's just a matter of time before I slowly lose my touch on her. And now,I don't have the energy to grab her back and she was not mine anymore.

It's just being too cruel for me.

What is happening?

I've never be in this sort of a feeling. I felt so down,so emotional,so sad. Everything that I tried to do seems against me. What happened? I felt everything around me is so cruel,so unkind,so evil. I felt so isolated,abandoned.

Everything is going downhill for me. I don't know where do I stand in everyone's eyes now. Why certain people must treat me like that? My emotion sinks to a level which I never experience before. I don't know how to handle it.

Unwelcomed?

Just want to take photo with my teacher. I went into the group,trying to be inside the photo,but someone said:

Please go away.

Am I that unwelcomed? Or is it a balas to all what I had say to the others?

Regretted

I can't believe that it was me actually who make the early stepback. I regretted it. I wish I could take it back but seems I had already leave myself no chance at all.

I really want to cry for the stupidest things I had ever done in my life.

I love Leong Sue Fen. =(

Find back the true self

sorry for all the nonsense tat i gave.

Give me time ok? i need whole lots of time to find back myself,change my attitude...it's not an easy task. i know many ppl including u dun expect me can do it,but like u said,at least i tried rite?

I need to find back the TC tat was once arrogant,confident n have self dignity. all these have lost from me.

my arrogant make me feel bad bout myself.
my confidence sinks to the bottom low.
my dignity is easily shaken when ppl criticise me.

i need to find back the old me becoz...

I AM WHO I AM! =P

My feelings

POINTLESS TO TALK TO ME

I dun get it...am I that hard to comprehend that she thinks it is just like talking to a bull?

If it is,I think I just have to work myself up like a bull to make myself better for her.

WHY MUST BE ME ONLY!?

Does she think me alone should have to change myself for the goods?

I ALWAYS WRONG!?

Am I alone should be responsible for all the quarrels with her?

Wonders

Do I behave like a kid?



Do I really that irritating when I show my true colour?



Do I know how to treat a girlfriend?



Do I deserve her love?



Do I worthy of someone's appreciation?



Do I know what is dating?



Do I know what is love?



Does my attitude really got such a big problem that no one can accept?



Do I always get criticism?



Do I know how to appreciate love?



Do I know how to appreciate her?

Free like a bird

whoa! finally PMR's over(ok...i just late update bout it). i'm transformed from a monkey to a bird dy! no need keep in the zoo(skul aka PMR) adi! yeah!

totally agree with vicki that whoever said PMR is easier than trial gt problem. mayb their year is true, but it is a completely different case tis year! ok...tis is the last time u're gonna hear me said bout PMR till i gt my result(another climax!)

haha...so wat's next after PMR?
erm...gaming aka water margining,sleeping,eat(!!!),sporting on tv and not to forget...DATING! xD

further plan will be reveal soon.
hapi freedom,every form3 students!!!

O.O

What does your birthday say about you?

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and pro...ductive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

Love Zodiac Profile

You are an exciting person to fall in love with. Your partner will feel lucky to be in love with you. You have a good sense of humor and your sweetheart will never fe...el bored with you. You are a very caring person. You like to flirt with the opposite sex. The opposite sex likes you because of your creative and innovative ideas. You are very loyal to your loved one and do not leave their side whatever be the case. At the same time, you are sensitive and emotional. You like to surprise your beloved with something or the other.

Your kissing style:You are a seductive kisser. Truly enticing.

To attract you, the opposite sex must be:Imaginative, different, must not be clingy, etc.

You are more compatible with -Aquarius, Gemini, Libra, Leo, Sagittarius
You are less compatible with -Taurus, Virgo, CancerRead More

Inspiration from Vicki =)

wow! what a post i had read. GOOD vs EVIL(fight! x3 from her blog)

yes...we all knew the facts tat good will always conquer the evil in the end. so,fight the mr hyde inside ur heart and kick out all the habits a good student should have out of ur heart NOW!

PMR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

funny statement.proton xD

haha...here's some funny thing for u guys. if it's not funny,don't say it out. oh nonono,even if it's really not funny at all,pretend it is funny n have a good laugh. get it guys? good. let's go

tuition teacher: most car accidents happened in m'sia involved a proton car.

scene changed.

TC: dad. how many times ur car(his old 1 n my future 1) involved in accidents?
Dad: twice.
TC: what type of car involved with ur car in those two accidents?
Dad: two also a proton car.
TC: xD ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha(see! i told u it's funny. see the way i laugh)

T_T

hey...i know that mental distraction is bad for exams,ESPECIALLY for PMR. so why am i still emo?! T_T

come on,TC! NO POINT,rmb!? i guess u do. good. now,kept tis in ur mind. thr's none could be done. PMR is everything now till 13 oct 09. yes i mean it.

PMR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Reaching for the sky-high dreams

35 days left. After 3 years,8 months n 1 day of hard work,I finally see the end of my dream. BUT there's still 35 days left,just one step left,I can't lose ground now. The climax haven't over yet. Every hard work I done deserve to bring me one step closer to my dreams,but it's not a leap,it's step by step. All that matters now is the big one,PMR. Yes,with god blessing,I hope I can really reach for my dreams.

*Don't be sad. The climax ain't over yet. We said before we will reach for our dreams together. Come on,fire up!

No point

no point for being emo. i'm goin to face the biggest challenge of my life yet and i need to face it without worrying bout other things to succeed.

no point for saddening becoz some people criticize ur personality. just cry out loud n have a good sleep and it will be another new day of fresh challenge ahead.

Conclusion: no point for worrying bout any other things but PMR. i must ignore everything. PMR,u're the only thing that occupy my heart now....AHAHAHAHA! xD

Focus on the big thing ahead...it's now or never. gambateh!

Fall at the final hurdle

I never expected this to happen at all but the unexpected happened when you're least expect it. It strikes a blow to my confidence,a very huge one indeed. I'm just stunned now. I've lost all the sense of motivation to score well in this exam. What should I do? Well,maybe at first I can't treat this exam as just another test but now I think I could. I just don't know how to accept this failure now. I'm fast heading for a decline in both my confidence and my result.

Am I still myself? Do I know well about myself?

A bad day...=(

Why can't I score A?

Tell me y...izzit I'm lazy or I'm just too stupid? Or mayb the paper is hard?

TC : good luck for ur BC paper.
GJY : u too. good luck. get ANOTHER 100%!
TC: ok. it's not funny. it's imposibble
GJY: LOL. you don't believe my words will come true also trust urself la...smart dude,you BOLEH 1 la

Sue: i ALWAYS know u CAN 1 rite?

i've heard enuf! i know myself well that i just cannot in the moment. all those consoling din have an effect on me at all and in fact it made me feel even down. coz i just can't do it when the paper is full format. all those high marks in the intervensi is just all pure luck. i know my level. i also know perfectly well that god of luck will not always be thr to help u.

mum n sue keep telling me it's JUST trial. they just wan me to stay positive. but does it work? NO! even u stay positive so wat!? u still already do bad in ur paper. nth can change. what is said is just half correct. ask urself la! if u can't score well in the trial,do u think u'll get a result totally different and even better a lot than the PMR?

it feels stupid when GJY said i'm smart but my marks are actually lower than her. what will u feel when ppl call u smart but ur result is sucker than theirs? it feels erm..funny i guess...LOLS

ok...i dun have any intention to update actually but it all changed after 2day BC paper.
nah...updated adi...but sorry if u're offended.
end of nonsense-bullshit-talk. bb

Suffering

oh my gosh! it's so suffering. i'm sick! T_T

must be over-tired adi! yesterday backed home,i started to feel hot inside my body...tired. sue asked me to go check my body temperature. hypothesis accepted. i fall ill. went for clinic. the doctor said nowadays those ppl came for clinic fall ill. a normal situation? most probably.

still sick 2day. condition never turn good. pls! let me recover quickly as the trial is getting closer. =(

I'm useless =(

She always be tough in front of me. But deep inside the bottom of her heart,she's weak. Everytime when I feel so helpless and clueless,she will always be there for me. But when she is in such condition,where am I? I'm nowhere to be there for her. I feel so bad. What else can I give her besides the calls and releasing my frustration and moddyness on her?

I'm just sorry! =(

Scout Hooray!

argh! my leg so darn pain now,but sigh...no pay no gain. my leg earned me a moment of victorious. xD

faced 1 minor problem for this marching competition. u have to wear a black shoe. at 1st,i hoped yu kit have a black cotton shoe. he have but it's side is 9. not ngam for me. so,i had to wear my 2nd bro's cacated-black-leather-shoe for this competition. walaowei! it's not nice to wear at all seriously. leg pain becoz of it.

so,after school. me n yu kit went to eat our lunch. had a fun time with ming,sean,gwen n xiao. after that went down to the auditorium thr. had a practise at the tennis court thr be4 went into the venue for the competition,which is the auditorium. i was sweating like mad n to my disgust,a big C appeared in the sleeve thr. nvm bout that.

they checked our uniform be4 we do our marching. finished checking went inside did our marching. at 1st is fine but at the end thr lost focus n all sorts of mistake happened. it did make me feel that thr's no way we can won the competition. but hehe...when u think u're bad enuf,someone out thr is worse than u! xD scout won the best kawad team but finished second just behind kadet polis in the overall champs. well,i'm happy enuf coz when we took photo,i was just beside the trophy! xD

tat's all. buh-bye

Undeserve achievement

i guess not only my frenz but myself too stunt by my class standing for the intervensi 3. it feels so unreal for me. no.2 in the class...isn't it a joke? well,i have to believe it myself that it is not. i really did gt no.2 in the class standing. what a 'luck'!

it's just ridiculous isn't it? i can't believe how lucky am i tis exam. with only 6As n 2Bs u couldn't expect me to be no.2 in the class. somehow one incident open the door for me to climb that never-reachable ladder. the eng paper. no offence to others. everyone was stunt by their marks. every unexpected things happened to everyone in tis paper. some of those ppl who r so darn good in their eng take a slump in their results all of a sudden.

ok...i should stop praising myself. it's just pure luck. i know whr i stand among others. i gt mixed reaction from others. some congratulate me,some vows to beat me in the trial. it did irritate me in some way. but as i have been learning recently,i shouldn't take things too seriously.

do tis exam fire my spirit? well,i dun feel so at all. all i hope for the trial is that i can at least get the results which can boost my confidence heading to the big 1,PMR. i really scare that i will take a huge slump in the trial. if it really happen, no doubt it'll break down my spirit =(

but one particular person does give me the motivation i wish for-
Dad: good job,boy. keep up
me: =)

Impossible task? -.-

20 days be4 trial n 78 days be4 PMR...and i still haven't slow down my online habits. i should be insaf n stop onlining isn't it?! should get myself surrounded by books than computersssssssss...but can i do it? =(

*do ur best n hope for the best...gambateh!

=(

she realised that i changed my pencil box bac to the old 1(blue 1 of coz eh?). i dumped her 1st present to me. i saw the disappoinment on her face. i dun care bout it at 1st. but...how could i ever ignored her feeling!? i'm sorry. =(

p.s. counting down to the day...3 more days (or 4? lols).

back to lala land of homework

gosh! how could i miss her? once she came back,the world turn black. all miserable thing happened. her usual text-book-hw-bomb bac to the helm again. T_T

anyway,wonder she gave birth to a boy or a girl. but ish! shouldn't she take good care of her kid at home? she should be given extra time to take care of her child. not coming bac to the school n continuing her all-so-irritating-teaching-schedule. =_=

was kinda exciting that she came bac at 1st. sigh...mayb din see her for so long adi suddenly forget her evil style teaching method. once she ordered to take out our text book,the whole class jeer. can't she see our reaction?! haiz...she dun give a damn anyway isn't it? worse come to worst...she wan the hw to be done 2moro! wat the tootttttttttt! irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T

I need her very much

When I feel lonely,the only thing I want is for her to be by my side. Her presence make me feel better.

Haha...I feel like I'm her gf more than her bf. I need her more than she need me.

xD!
Missing u so much now! =(

The end of the Intervensi exam series

wow! finally intervensi 3 ended and that mark the end of the Intervensi exam series...we should be celebrating it rite? well,mayb yes mayb not. thr's still the bigger 1 coming soon: PMR percubaan n PMR...yes i mean PMR in another 89 days i think. oh! let's not talk bout it isn't it? should be enjoying the current moment rite?! woohoo!

wasn't sleeping well at all for the past 4 days. keep taking OT for studying...sigh...kesan akibat tidak membuat persiapan awal...who can be blame but urself. but nevertheless the joy of getting through it feels good...well,in another 90+ days time u will get the best undefining joy of ur life so far...i think u know what i mean rite?

let's talk bout the papers. gosh! BM was kinda ok but i dunno how sucky the results could turn out. BI slightly better than BM...hope can get good results. Maths...well,pray for the best as i can't n am not willing to predict the results...it is tougher than the dianogstics lo! Science...erm...guess do kinda well gua...A is good enuf! haha. Sej...i'm not puas with it...it's kinda hard n i know i once again fail to get 90+ T_T. Geo...din study much...can get A happy adi. KH...argh! pls give me an A!!! n lastly...den den den dang...ngek ngek ngek ngek...BC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u know what i mean for my BC paper rite? haha!!!!!!!!!

sigh...one more month be4 PMR trial exam...well,i mean basically u have no rest time at all. next week start preparing for it might just do fine for everyone rite? lols

p/s frenz out thr take care of ur health coz influenza A(H1N1) is spreading(cacat language) among the students.

Sunshine

I love you too doink ! :D
ROAR :D

Look carefully at the post time :D

Teddy Bear

You said I'm caring. Well,I just do what can I do as a bf. Honestly,not only you felt that,I feel I did very little too. Those little things that I did to show consideration for you it's like never satisfying me. I dun feel that you feel very happy enough. I want to do more,but currently I dun think I'll be able to do it. Still,the hapiness you showed in front of me make me feel glad,but something I feel guilty for doing so little. Give me time ok? I CAN DO MORE THAN THAT!!! =P

Eh...pinch me lesser k? xD Honestly it's pain lo! T_T xD

erm...i dunno what more to post...but i hope tis song can help me express myself. xD

Michael Jackson
I Just Can't Stop Loving you

Lyrics:
I Just Want To Lay
Next To You
For Awhile
You Look So
Beautiful Tonight
Your Eyes Are So Lovely
Your Mouth Is So Sweet
A Lot Of PeopleMisunderstand Me
That's BecauseThey Don'tKnow Me At All
I Just Want To Touch You
And Hold You
I Need You
God I Need You
I Love You So Much

[Michael] Each Time The Wind Blows
I Hear Your Voice
So I Call Your Name . . .
Whispers At Morning
Our Love Is Dawning
Heaven's Glad
You Came . . .

You Know How I Feel
This Thing
Can't Go Wrong
I'm So Proud To Say
I Love You
Your Love's Got Me High
I Long To Get By
This Time Is Forever
Love Is The Answer

[Siedah]
I Hear Your Voice Now
You Are My Choice Now
The Love You Bring
Heaven's In My Heart
At Your Call
I Hear Harps,
And Angels Sing

You Know How I Feel
This ThingCan't Go Wrong
I Can't Live My LifeWithout You

[Michael]
I Just Can't Hold On

[Siedah] I Feel We Belong

[Michael]
My Life Ain'tWorth Living
If I Can't Be With You

[Both]
I Just Can'tStop Loving You
I Just Can'tStop Loving You
And If I Stop . . .
Then Tell Me
Just WhatWill I Do

[Siedah]
'Cause I Just Can't StopLoving You

[Michael] At Night When TheStars Shine
I Pray In You
I'll FindA Love So True . . .
[Siedah] When Morning Awakes Me
Will You Come
And Take Me
I'll Wait For You

[Michael]
You Know How I Feel
I Won't Stop
UntilI Hear Your Voice Saying"I Do"

[Siedah]
"I Do"This ThingCan't Go Wrong

[Michael]
This Feeling's So Strong

[Siedah]
Well, My Life Ain'tWorth Living

[Both]
If I Can't Be With You
I Just Can'tStop Loving You
I Just Can'tStop Loving You
And If I Stop . . .
Then Tell Me,
Just WhatWill I Do

[Michael]
I Just Can'tStop Loving You

[Siedah]
We Can ChangeAll The WorldTomorrow

[Michael]
We Can Sing Songs OfYesterday

[Siedah]
I Can Say, Hey .. .FarewellTo Sorrow

[Michael] This Is My Life And I,

[Both]
Want To See YouFor AlwaysI
Just Can'tStop Loving You

[Siedah]
No, Baby

[Michael]
Oh!

[Both]
I Just Can'tStop Loving You

[Siedah] If I Can't Stop![

Both]
And If I Stop . . .

[Siedah]
No

[Michael] Oh! Oh! Oh . . .Oh . . .

[Siedah]
What Will I Do?
Uh . . .Ooh . ..(Then Tell Me, Just WhatWill I Do)

[Both]
I Just Can'tStop Loving You

[Michael]
Hee! Hee! Hee! Know I DoGirl!

[Both]
I Just Can'tStop Loving You

[Michael]
You Know I DoAnd If I Stop . . .

[Both]
Then Tell Me, Just WhatWill I Do
I Just Can'tStop Loving You

Little green monster xD

haha...i was late to update bout tis,and forget too. but none the less my girl demands me to update bout it. so,here it is.

wednesday 24 june 2009. saw the present on my chair after bac from PJ. the present is wrapped up n put inside a small shopping bag. at 1st i dunno who gave it to me. but after a while i realised it was from sue fen. haha...sean was asking me to open the present but i refused coz i haven't get permission from her. so,when recess thank her for the present. she asked me to open the present coz the wrapper is awkful...but again i refused. then,when bac to class after recess,i received a card from her in which i think leow gave me. n i read it. so touching. xD

after school,she again ask me to open the present but still i refused. so it was until i went home that i only open it. haha...it's a toy. a little green monster. here is how i describe it's look:

a little small head with an small eye then follow by a big head with a big eye then followed by a tiny body with a heart in front of the body.

i guess u dunno what i'm crapping. it's not easy to hold it when i'm sleeping coz it's kinda small but i guess i managed to have it by my side when i'm sleeping. lols

n the little green monster is on my lap currently. buh-bye!
updated. =P

Tribute to the King Michael Jackson

He was the most exciting and popular performer during his generation,well-known for his breathtaking live performance and stunning music. His once-stellar career had placed him among the great in the music history. He was one of the world's famous man during his life,not only for his bizarre music career but also his highly publicized personal life. If everyone can put aside all those sexual abuse allegations against him and his surgically altered appearence,he will be as gunuine as any music great in the history of music.

I'm deeply saddened over the death of the King of Pop as any MJ's fans. The world just lost the biggest pop star in history. His legacy and contribution to the music world will live long forever and ever and will always be remembered by many fans of him,including me of course.

Here's my top 10 rating of the best song of Michael Jackson:
10. I just Can't Stop Loving You
9. You Rock My World
8. Don't Stop 'til You Get Enough
7. The Way You Make Me Feel
6. Bad
5. Thriller
4. Smooth Criminal
3. Black or White
2. Beat It
1. Billy Jean

I got it!!!

haha...finally I gt what I desperate for! The moment was so nice,so sweet!

ARGH!!!

I FEEL LIKE BITTING,TEARING,DESTROYING,BEATING,PUNCHING SOMETHING AND SHOUTING OUT LOUD LOUD! do tis help in releasing frustration? T_T

I tried

I'm suppose to be doing my tuition work now,but it only make me feel frustrated. So I will take a timeout to release my tention here.

I tried. I tried to be confident. Since the starting of the year when I often cried because of PMR,I feel so down. But many friends of mine told me not to be so depressed since it's still early yet. And I got through all the hard feeling...well,sort of.

I din really get through that. It's June now. 113 days before PMR. During intervensi 2,when I gt an A for my BM,I was overjoy and my confidence increased. Well,seems like when something reach the peak,it will never stay there long and will eventually fall down for me. Dianogstic was over and papers have been given out recently. This exam is the 1st full-format exam we(form 3s) had since last year year end examination. I still remember that if it's counted in PMR marking,I had all As for my subject in last year year end exam. Well,everything seems went pretty well for me isn't it?

But the recently concluded dianogstic brought my back to the fact that I'm still far from getting As for my language subjects. My language subject always bring down my confidence. I knew I did kinda well for other subjects but that din satisfy me at all because I knew I can score in those subject and what I really want is do well for my language subject.

I feel so down,so depressed,so frustrated and so sad now. I din feel this way for about 3 months already but now all those feeling just came back right in the time that PMR is coming soon. SF keep telling me to be confident but hey! It's not I don't wan to be confident but I have to accept the fact that I'm just not good enough now.

I felt that nothing is helping me at all now to be mentally ready for PMR. My tuition certainly din. Since I joined Pusat Tuition Minda Ceria in hope that it can help me to improve on my language subject,I never feel I have any slight improvement at all. The BI tuition is crazy. Teaching those stuff that won't be coming out for PMR. What make me feel more frustrated is that PMR is nearer and nearer now and the teacher still give those 'bombastic' homework that I can't even do at all. BM tuition was better. I din feel frustrated but I still dun feel it help me in any way that will improve my BM. WHAT SHOULD I DO?! I can't leave minda ceria as I dun have any tuition else that can help me in my language subject.

The school too do no favour in helping me at all. BM teacher did do her job in teaching us but I feel it can't solve my problem. BI make it worse. I wonder how many class had we(3M) skip for BI? BC teacher too do her best in teaching us and I'm paid attention to her class. But with limited time and environment to study BC,I feel I only improve a bit or din improve at all. And to make me feel even more hatred about the school,WHAT'S THE PURPOSE OF SELECTING THOSE 99 STUDENTS THAT THE SCHOOL THINK CAN GET STRAIGHT A FOR PMR!? The school did nothing at all in helping these students,not with teacher occasionly ponteng class.

ok...i feel better now...during tis year,i had learnt to be cheerful but not facing bout exams. sigh...i wish i'm ready for my tuition work as i'm goin to face the posibilty of frustrating again. hope it won't happen. buh-bye!

Second fail in my life T_T

sigh...never study...expected to get bad results...48 for civic. second time i failed an exam paper in my life. 1st was my muzik exam bac in primary school during 2006. wasn't that sad but still calarkan my record. buh-bye

I WAN MY COTTON CANDY 2moro. xD

Durian 'Ho Chak'

ok...i'm supposed doin my KKS,still left reka bentuk pelan...but here i am blogging

WOW! Durian is so nice,king of all fruit,fantastic fruit. my parents just bac from Muar...with a lot of durians bac. *playing my tongue*. my aunt(my dad's sis) has a fruit farm in Muar,so everytime when my dad went bac his oldtown sure came bac with a lot of fruits(durian is the best!!! =P).

OMG! DURIAN TASTES GOOD OK?! haha...'Ho Chak'

bac to work...buh-bye!

=)

ok...i know i can't describe tis till can make u feel emotional...i just post wat i felt k?

obviously the song is nice. when u play the song,i was enjoying it. i close my eyes,recall bac the memory last time when i sat beside u n u played the piano for me during ur birthday party tis year. last time was awkful...for both of us. u din play that particularly well and i dun really know how to respond. tis time is different. u said u played somewhr long,but i din notice at all. i was closing my eyes n enjoying it. it's nice. xD

ok...i know u won't feel emo...bla bla bla! go dota luuuuu

Nice quotes

Nice quotes from F.C. Barcelona chairman Joan Laporta:

Barcelona creates FIFA World Player of the year,
Real Madrid buys FIFA World Player of the year.

I'm sorry.

sorry for not being thr with u when u needed me the most.

i always wan to be with u coz i miss u...u knew that.

take care of ur body...really sorry.

CR7 heading to Real Madrid!!!!!!! T_T

OMG! second stunt 2day:
MAN UTD HAD ACCEPTED REAL MADRID'S 80 MILLION POUND WORLD RECORD BID FOR WOLRD PLAYER OF THE YEAR CRISTIANO RONALDO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i mean NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cristiano Ronaldo is my favourite player!!!!

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ferrari on the Malaysia's road?

OMG! 2day i gt big stunt. 1st is i saw 1 ferrari car on Malaysia's road. i was heading to my tuition. it pass through my dad's car. OMG!

Has anyone see 1 ferrari car on the malaysia's road be4? my dad said he saw lots of time.
pls leave tag...

Happy day.

wow! I love 2day. Although not 100% comfortable with it,but still it's so sweet to think back!

10 Jun 2009...another memorable day for 2009. xD

I'm officially a granduncle T_T

Omg! Can you believe it? I'm a granduncle now officially. My niece gave birth to a child...boy somemore. OMG OMG OMG!!!

haha...congratz to my niece 1st of all. And dunno whether this is a great thing or not. I'm already a granduncle!!! but...I'm only 15 leh...so young become granduncle. So,what you guys think? Good or bad for me?

Homeworks!!! T_T

ok...thr's still lots of homework yet to be done. n the 1st week of hols i actually do none of them as i was too miss someone that i actually chatted with her the whole weeks. n now the second weeks have arrived(2day is tuesday adi!!! T_T). after 2moro really need to get bac my mood of doin homework. if not i'll be in big trouble.

homeworks yet to be done:
1) BM paper from school
2) science project
3) Kerja Kursus Sejarah
4) tuition 20 summaries(only did 7 of them,others dunno how to do so i dun plan to do)
5) one essay about killing ppl(i dun have any idea at all how to do it,so the same thing: dun do)
6) seni project

oh my god...pls help me get through all these works T_T

Play no work

ok...went to sean's house in the morning 2day. was surppose to go thr around 9.30a.m. to 10a.m. but have to go thr around 10.15 coz ming was late. i think we reached thr around 11a.m. Ming sweat a lot and me too sweat but not that much. when arrived at sean's house n entered his room,me n ming were both crying for fan.

starting we checked out some ppl's blog n played some computer game. n then without caring bout the project at all,we're actually playing computer games the whole day. all thx to ee ching's work. coz she was so kind n generous for sending us her work. well,then we also don't bother about the KKS adi n play & chat the whole day instead. swt isn't it?

well,special dedication for Sim Ee Ching for being so kind n generous for borrowing us ur work. Appreciate it a lot as it help to save me lots of homework stress tis hols.

I miss my frenz!!! =(

You know what? Holidays and school days are almost no different for me,with the exception that I have my frenz surrouding me during school. Not to say that I dun cherish hols...who won't love to get away from school thingy n relax during the hols. But what make me hate about holidays is that I have to go through each and every day longer without anyone to talk to at all from morning to afternoon. I absolutely hate my home. This hols,in the morning it's either sleeping or NBA which rarely show in TV. Afternoon the worst,it's all about sleeping. At night better as most ppl online during tis time.

Even during school days,I dun feel like I love my home. In the night is the only time i be with my family...well sort of. my mum usually sleep coz she's tired working plus have health problem. My dad work during nights. my eldest bro locked himself up in his room n played ps 2. my second bro dun even be at home as he is married n has his own family. well,u see i dun think thr's anyone be with me during nights. i can only turn to my frenz for making my life rather not tat boring.

haha...i love school n my frenz. although school is kinda stress coz it's form 3 tis year,but i still love to go to school. i had someone to talk with,play with. i miss my classmates. when bored,can find them to play n chat. it's so different compared to the time i'm at home.

well,typing half way i found out it's kinda random. i just type what i felt inside my heart. well,tat's all for this time. buh-bye!

Steamboat buffet dinner

Had my 'dinner' in Restoran Yuen at Sunway City just now. Woke up by my bro around 4.30 and off we go.

Reached there around 5.30. I don't really enjoy steamboat though. ate quite a lot of sotong. And the funny part is that the restaurant famous dish is the 'chicken cola'. It only came out once every 10-15 mins. so,everyone was fighting for it. 1st time only my bro went,din even get one piece. so it's too much for my family and we sent out an 'army' the next turn. 5 warriors out: me,my mum,my two bro n my 2nd bro's wife. I managed to get 5 pieces. My mum had the most with 8 pieces. total is 24 pieces we managed to get. so,tat's all for us coz it's very embarrasing go thr standing n ready fighting for it. haha...it din end thr. we managed to watch 3 show I think. others were fighting for it. i think each time the dish came out,it took less than 10 second for it to finish. funny isn't it? nth much to talk except i ate two cups of ice-cream be4 we go.

I love Benjamin Goh!!!

Ok...firstly I'm not gay. It's just the way he consoled me just now make me feel very cheer up.

He said I didn't do anything wrong in my last relationship. I told him that there's sure be two-way wrong in a relationship if the relationship went wrong. I even feel that I wrong the most. But the more n longer I talked to him,the more he cheered me up. Every point he pointed out made me feel like I really din do anything wrong at all.

well,won't talk much bout it anymore. all the recent post feel like talking to myself rather than telling ppl my life. LOLS

Mess cleaned up xD

After 1 year of lecture from my parents,I finally cleaned up the mess in my room...well sort of...at least it looked better now before i cleaned it up a bit.

Mum said wanna clean my room 2day,so I semangat go to clean it up. Actually wanna divide all the tuition thingy accordingly,but in the end just dump it nicely into a box...TC still TC...never have the heart to clean up things. At least I cleaned up the messy part which allow my mum to sweep that part of the floor.

Well,at least I do clean up my own room. Gt responsible la! haha! =P

A day to be remember XD

5 Jun 2009...the day I'm at my peak of craziness!!!!

Memorable follow by Surprise xD

Oh my god! This hols is so ridiculous!!! She gave me a lot of sweet moment during Van's b'day...and then just now came a real shocker to me.

She: do u wanna see me now?
me: wan also cannot la
she: i'm just in front of ur house
me: dei! what u talking? i blur like a fool adi
she: u dunno thr's one thing call webcam
me: huh? i can see u?
she: yesssssssssssssssss
me: i can see u but u can't see me?
i dun get wat u mean at all

It all happened in a sudden. She on her webcam,I accepted it,and there she are in my computer screen. I can see her face. I was like OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!! She gave me a real shock.

OH MY GOD!!!

Complicated feeling

I wonder whether it is the right thing or not that you told me about that. I accepted that...well I think can...but whenever I think back about that,I don't really feel good about it,it's like so complicated in my feeling.

I'm glad that you're willing to tell me that thing. For me,if I am you,I don't think that I will dare to tell it out. You gave me the feeling that you're willing to share everything including those secrets in which you don't think I can accept it,and this is the thing which I don't get in the past.

Well,I just wrote what I really felt deep inside of my heart. Hope you won't too concern about this. :)

I love you and I miss you. xD

Vanessa's Birthday Party

went to van's b'day party after tuition. my dad fetched me,ben n jia to van's house. ben known the place very well and showed my dad the way as he lived thr be4.

when stepped into van's house,saw a lot of the seniors thr. then went to wish van happi b'day. then went downstair ate. have a great time chatting talking crap with the seniors,especially Keith Chen. he crapped a lot. then went to swimming pool to start the water game.

gt pushed into the pool by Ben n Koon thong. i'm the 1st person 'jumped' into the pool. then followed by Amanda. then slowly everyone followed. those seniors all took out their shirt. when i tried to play with those seniors in the pool,they all threatened me to take out my shirt by tried to strip me off. -__" damn bad!

sue fen too jumped into the pool. at 1st i thought she could play herself coz she said be4 she know how to swim,but then all those girl asked me to hold her hand becoz she DUNNO HOW TO SWIM. i was like huh? then i grabbed her hand n held her hand...lols...1st time held a girl's hand...sweet memory...haha! i asked her whether she know how to swim or not. n surprisingly she shouted at me n said no. damn bad...lie to me. T_- wonder why she lie? lols...

played 007 in the pool. whoever lost twice will gt theirselves throw into the pool by ppl...fun isn't it? sue lost once. me n her together jumped into the pool willingly. haha! n then inside the pool was so cold. n thx to sue for let me to hug her for warm. hehe...tis day was so memorable! xD

around 10 all get out of the pool to eat birthday cake. then change shirt. have to share towel with Ben as he dun have. frenz wad. after tat i go to eat again coz i felt kinda cold n hungry. then around 11.30 my dad fetched me home.

30 May 2009 is another memorable day for sue i guess...lols

A new beginning

lols...just deleted all my post. coz i felt some of those are nothing memorable for me anymore. i hope in the future every post of mine would be meaningful to me.

two words be4 i go:
I'm back!!! xD