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I din expect I would walk into that place at all. But coincidentally,I was drop on the other side of that place and I had to walked into that place to get to the other side where my dad would pick me there. It was the first time I walked into that place since the one and only outing I had with her during that particular time.

Walked into that place,I was so blur because I think I only went into this place once. But then,I
saw the food court where I had my lunch with her during that outing. Continue walking I was able to recognize which way to walk now. Walk walk walk...reached the cinema where I had also one and only movie with her during that particular time. Not to forget the big BR sign of course. Those memory around the cinema and BR are sweet and bitter.

Reached the place where my dad would pick me up. Strong wind is blowing. Wish that the wind can blow away all those bitter feeling away and leave only the sweet inside my heart.

Wonderland that isn't wonderful anymore

The reality is always harsh

When I couldn't take it,I choose to be in my wonderland

But I just can't help that my wonderland isn't that wonderful anymore

How I wish I could back in time

Back to the place where everything was so wonderful

The past that won't repeat again. =(

CNY =)

CNY has passed,but that doesn't mean the spirit is over. We are in the mood to eat,collect angpaus n tv-ing rite guys n girls? xD

So overall,my CNY is nothing more than eating. Can't bear it. My aunt cook like at least 5 dishes per meal and I eat like at least 2 small bowl of rice per meal. Well,my stomach also shouting to me saying: stop stuffing food inside me wth. xD

Talking bout angpaus. Din collect alot. And I dun even know how many money I gt. When I received angpau,I din even check n gave to my mum asking her to keep it. Well,why would I check how many money I gt since I can always get money from my mum whenever I want?

A lot of shows during CNY. But mostly shown be4. It's just I never watch be4. In chinese show,well it's all bout mahjong. Nth new 1...==. Then eng show,ahaha...watch 2 James Bond show...1 is The World Is Not Enough n 2 is GoldenEye. Will be watching a 3 1 which is Tomorrow Never Dies later on 11p.m. =) I wish I am James Bond. =)

I guess tat's all for this post. Stay tune.

p.s. trying my very best to revive my blog. Hope you u all can support my blog...muahaha

Craziest party I ever attend.

Thanks so much to Sanjivyen for inviting me to your sweet 16 birthday party. =)

I never dance in front of anyone before. It all happened in his party.

Awesome party. xD

Just not the same anymore =(

It's hard to build a close relationship with someone who is just your normal fren. I guess it's even harder to maintain the once close relationship with your best fren now.

Once upon a time(I dunno since when it was the last time I used this xD),they're with me. But now I'm seperated with them. And things aren't just going to be the same anymore.

I'm being left out by them. You can barely find a person that walk with me to canteen during recess.

I'm tired of those sarcastism showed by you guys. It feels so annoying. It just make me feel you guys are rejecting me.

The wall that builded between me and you guys because of different class do no harm to you guys but only me. Because I'm the only one left out alone in a different class.

They just don't care about me =(

Well,since everyone is begging me to update my blog,I guess I'll just give them a treat n this blog another emo post.

I tried. I've tried so hard.

Yeah I know. I was wrong to not even accept my new classmates after being sorted out in the same class with them. And ok,like what everyone adviced me,I tried to suit myself with my classmates. Mix with them and try to socialise with them. But so far it doesn't appear to me that things are going to be better. Mayb it did get better. But only a little. Very little.

For me,making the 1st step to mix with them was seriously very hard. It feels like they just don't care about me unless I made the 1st step to mix with them. This feeling sucks to the max.
Eventhough I tried to mix with them,I feel I don't belong to them. It's like they accepting me because I'm a very pity and isolated person in the class.

I din mean to criticise you all in this post. I just want to tell that this is how I felt when being isolated in the class.

I guess for you guys,I was wrong in not seeing this in a positive way that you all are trying to accept me. But the moment being isolated in the class made me feel so emo.

Nonetheless,I still got to hang on in the class. I will and have to no matter what.

I guess I just need to try harder.