Persistent or Persistence?

When I reflected all my previous post starting of this year, I began to wonder whether am I a persistent person or a person with persistence? I actually can't differentiate both words and went to checked out the dictationary to find out its meaning. I guess now I have some clue about its meanings.

Persistent...I guess this words always tag along with me whenever people talked about my personality. In fact everyone will very much agree with this. I am persistent,too persistent indeed. I quarrel with my non-chinese educated chinese friends because of my persistent personality. I can't suit myself in 4A early of the year because I'm very persistent that my classmates aren't the type of classmates which I could accept.

When I began to grow up(mentally) and became mature,I realised sometimes in certain case,being too persistent aint good at all. Being too persistent is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but never get you anywhere. Literally,it gives me something to argue for but never win me any arguement. I'm very persistent in the view that chinese people should indeed learn BC or continue to learn BC. I'm very persistent about changing class early this year because I don't think I can fit into 4A. But when I became more mature and think more open,being too persistent on these two example get me nowhere. My persistent din influence others' thinking about the issue of chinese people learning chinese. My persistent din help me to settle quick into 4A and have a happy form 4 life early of this year.

In the end,I came to realise that I can't be that persistent because it gets me nowhere. But I guess persistence is one of my personality. Persistent and persistence is kind of synonyms. But it's not. It's the way how I think that made the difference between persistent and persistence. As I said,persistence is one of my personality. For me,being persistence means you believe in certain things that it's one of your belief. People said I might be too stress and concern about studies. They said studies aint everything. They said I should become more active in other things except studies. But for me,I still believe as a teenager and student,studies is everything. I studied hard. I believe studies give me a better future. I believe studies give me self-confidence so on and so forth. I don't care about people saying my life is dull because of studies,studies and studies. You see,persistence is my personality. And this persistence benefits me. I got good results because I worked for it. And I'm happy with it.

Perhaps in certain things people might feel I'm too persistent. But for me it's not persistent,but persistence. Well,in a nutshell,I guess being able to think more maturely help me to stay out of the persistent track. But persistence is the material that make up my track. And this persistence provides a platform for me to certain success. I'm just born as a person with persistence. And that's me,TC. =)

p.s. gosh I can't believe that when I think,there is something to blog about. But perhaps during school days all I could think of is studies and studies. That's y I dunno what to blog. Erm...is this persistent or persistence? haha...xD

Confidence = Arrogance?

You must be wondering where the heck I found inspiration to blog as I always said I dunno what to blog whenever someone asked me to update. Well you see, I came across an interesting conversation with a relatively not-so-closed-friend,let's put him/her as T. T said...erm...let's put this 2 person as G and L,who said I'm arrogant. Well,first thing came into my mind is ARH...I got something to blog about adi. And now,here's my update after so long.

Arrogance...to be honest I had basically put this topic aside long time ago. I thought probably I'd changed long time ago from an arrogant person to being a more humble person. Well,it seems that from the conversation I had with T,I found out there are still people who put me as an arrogant person. I'm not pissed off or anything beh song about people's comments about my personality. Everyone had their rights to comment about this. I wrote this update just to share my view of myself as an arrogant person in which G and L put as.

When I heard from T that G and L said I'm arrogant, of course first thing is I felt a bit errr...how to put tis...hurt? when I heard such comments by these two persons,in which one of them is one of my closest my friend. I began to wonder in what sense had I been arrogant lately. Then the first answer came into my mind is my recent final school examination results. The only thing that I feel I could be arrogant. To be honest,I really dunno in which other way people will feel that I'm arrogant at besides studies.

I guess I don't need to elaborate on my results since this post is written for my frens in which I think they will already got to know about my results. (I don't want people to think I'm showing off here about my results...I DIN MEAN THAT WAY!!! ==) Regarding about my results,of course I'm very much happy for myself. I guess some can noticed how cheerful I am when I'm talking. I just wonder is it because of this hapiness on my face,some people felt that I'm arrogant. First of all,I dun think I have go around everywhere telling others that I got a good results bla bla bla...like I scare no one know about my results. Second,ya I might be too excited when talking about exam results. Please do forgive me if my excitement has caused some of you to think I'm showing off and being arrogant.

As I said before,I always love to get good results because it gives me self-confidence. There's no doubt getting such a great results this time shot my self-confidence sky high. I dunno what's your view on studies and exam. But my personal view is that studies and exam give me a sense of confidence and a sense of respect from my friends in which I couldn't find it anywhere else from myself besides studies and exam. This is mainly because I knew I'm nothing good besides studies and exam. I'm bad-tempered. I'm not such good in sports like our Joshua Lee. My mouth also no need to talk adi. Well,mayb some of my frenz like Sue Fen and Sook Yi will agree that I'm more mature than last time. Guess this one is one of my pro? xD

I can't never deny that I am indeed an arrogant person...very arrogant last time. Let's give one example here. I remembered during last year sports days,I'm so confident until arrogant that I think I could take 4-5 events. One event,which is the 100m run,I'm so desperate to participate in because I think I can perform and get medal for this event. Well,there's a short story to tell here. One day,Desmond challenged me to run 100m with him. Ya,nth much to say because he won me,by kind of a big margin. AND I failed to even win a medal for this event. Well,this story taught me a lesson that even though I might be very confident in something,I need to control my confidence to a certain level in which it won't exceed the arrogance limits.

p.s. I can't believe I actually tell this story. IT'S SO EMBARASSING!!! =.="

Well,to be honest personally I had learned from this lesson. Even though I'm good in something,I have to be humble. Likewise,I'm good in studies and I really really learn to be humble. If you don't think I had become humble,at least I do feel I'm not that arrogant as last time gua?

Let's come into this question: is my confidence equal to arrogance? I can't really answer this question because everyone has a different definition of my confidence. Some may think I'm just being confident,some may think my confidence has exceed the limits in which it is equal to arrogance. What I can say is I don't hide my confidence. I won't be too humble until I shaked off my confidence. I show it. And if it makes me feel good about myself,I'm fine with the way I show my confidence to people because I don't think I'm being arrogant. I mean you see...when you are not confident,people encourage you to be confident of yourself. When you are confident,people said you are arrogant. LOLS

In a nutshell,I'm just being myself and confidence is part of me and something that I wanted. If in any way,I'm becoming too arrogant,please tell,remind and advice me. A person improved because of advises from his friends. Same goes to me. =)