That's it.

What a day. Today is Halloween of 2009...and this day will haunt me forever in my life.

I felt like my life has gone. I don't know how to find it back at this very moment.

At one point in my relationship with her,I felt like I'm completely owned by her and she too had the same feeling. But it never was. It's just a matter of time before I slowly lose my touch on her. And now,I don't have the energy to grab her back and she was not mine anymore.

It's just being too cruel for me.

What is happening?

I've never be in this sort of a feeling. I felt so down,so emotional,so sad. Everything that I tried to do seems against me. What happened? I felt everything around me is so cruel,so unkind,so evil. I felt so isolated,abandoned.

Everything is going downhill for me. I don't know where do I stand in everyone's eyes now. Why certain people must treat me like that? My emotion sinks to a level which I never experience before. I don't know how to handle it.

Unwelcomed?

Just want to take photo with my teacher. I went into the group,trying to be inside the photo,but someone said:

Please go away.

Am I that unwelcomed? Or is it a balas to all what I had say to the others?

Regretted

I can't believe that it was me actually who make the early stepback. I regretted it. I wish I could take it back but seems I had already leave myself no chance at all.

I really want to cry for the stupidest things I had ever done in my life.

I love Leong Sue Fen. =(

Find back the true self

sorry for all the nonsense tat i gave.

Give me time ok? i need whole lots of time to find back myself,change my attitude...it's not an easy task. i know many ppl including u dun expect me can do it,but like u said,at least i tried rite?

I need to find back the TC tat was once arrogant,confident n have self dignity. all these have lost from me.

my arrogant make me feel bad bout myself.
my confidence sinks to the bottom low.
my dignity is easily shaken when ppl criticise me.

i need to find back the old me becoz...

I AM WHO I AM! =P

My feelings

POINTLESS TO TALK TO ME

I dun get it...am I that hard to comprehend that she thinks it is just like talking to a bull?

If it is,I think I just have to work myself up like a bull to make myself better for her.

WHY MUST BE ME ONLY!?

Does she think me alone should have to change myself for the goods?

I ALWAYS WRONG!?

Am I alone should be responsible for all the quarrels with her?

Wonders

Do I behave like a kid?



Do I really that irritating when I show my true colour?



Do I know how to treat a girlfriend?



Do I deserve her love?



Do I worthy of someone's appreciation?



Do I know what is dating?



Do I know what is love?



Does my attitude really got such a big problem that no one can accept?



Do I always get criticism?



Do I know how to appreciate love?



Do I know how to appreciate her?

Free like a bird

whoa! finally PMR's over(ok...i just late update bout it). i'm transformed from a monkey to a bird dy! no need keep in the zoo(skul aka PMR) adi! yeah!

totally agree with vicki that whoever said PMR is easier than trial gt problem. mayb their year is true, but it is a completely different case tis year! ok...tis is the last time u're gonna hear me said bout PMR till i gt my result(another climax!)

haha...so wat's next after PMR?
erm...gaming aka water margining,sleeping,eat(!!!),sporting on tv and not to forget...DATING! xD

further plan will be reveal soon.
hapi freedom,every form3 students!!!