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I din expect I would walk into that place at all. But coincidentally,I was drop on the other side of that place and I had to walked into that place to get to the other side where my dad would pick me there. It was the first time I walked into that place since the one and only outing I had with her during that particular time.

Walked into that place,I was so blur because I think I only went into this place once. But then,I
saw the food court where I had my lunch with her during that outing. Continue walking I was able to recognize which way to walk now. Walk walk walk...reached the cinema where I had also one and only movie with her during that particular time. Not to forget the big BR sign of course. Those memory around the cinema and BR are sweet and bitter.

Reached the place where my dad would pick me up. Strong wind is blowing. Wish that the wind can blow away all those bitter feeling away and leave only the sweet inside my heart.

Wonderland that isn't wonderful anymore

The reality is always harsh

When I couldn't take it,I choose to be in my wonderland

But I just can't help that my wonderland isn't that wonderful anymore

How I wish I could back in time

Back to the place where everything was so wonderful

The past that won't repeat again. =(

CNY =)

CNY has passed,but that doesn't mean the spirit is over. We are in the mood to eat,collect angpaus n tv-ing rite guys n girls? xD

So overall,my CNY is nothing more than eating. Can't bear it. My aunt cook like at least 5 dishes per meal and I eat like at least 2 small bowl of rice per meal. Well,my stomach also shouting to me saying: stop stuffing food inside me wth. xD

Talking bout angpaus. Din collect alot. And I dun even know how many money I gt. When I received angpau,I din even check n gave to my mum asking her to keep it. Well,why would I check how many money I gt since I can always get money from my mum whenever I want?

A lot of shows during CNY. But mostly shown be4. It's just I never watch be4. In chinese show,well it's all bout mahjong. Nth new 1...==. Then eng show,ahaha...watch 2 James Bond show...1 is The World Is Not Enough n 2 is GoldenEye. Will be watching a 3 1 which is Tomorrow Never Dies later on 11p.m. =) I wish I am James Bond. =)

I guess tat's all for this post. Stay tune.

p.s. trying my very best to revive my blog. Hope you u all can support my blog...muahaha

Craziest party I ever attend.

Thanks so much to Sanjivyen for inviting me to your sweet 16 birthday party. =)

I never dance in front of anyone before. It all happened in his party.

Awesome party. xD

Just not the same anymore =(

It's hard to build a close relationship with someone who is just your normal fren. I guess it's even harder to maintain the once close relationship with your best fren now.

Once upon a time(I dunno since when it was the last time I used this xD),they're with me. But now I'm seperated with them. And things aren't just going to be the same anymore.

I'm being left out by them. You can barely find a person that walk with me to canteen during recess.

I'm tired of those sarcastism showed by you guys. It feels so annoying. It just make me feel you guys are rejecting me.

The wall that builded between me and you guys because of different class do no harm to you guys but only me. Because I'm the only one left out alone in a different class.

They just don't care about me =(

Well,since everyone is begging me to update my blog,I guess I'll just give them a treat n this blog another emo post.

I tried. I've tried so hard.

Yeah I know. I was wrong to not even accept my new classmates after being sorted out in the same class with them. And ok,like what everyone adviced me,I tried to suit myself with my classmates. Mix with them and try to socialise with them. But so far it doesn't appear to me that things are going to be better. Mayb it did get better. But only a little. Very little.

For me,making the 1st step to mix with them was seriously very hard. It feels like they just don't care about me unless I made the 1st step to mix with them. This feeling sucks to the max.
Eventhough I tried to mix with them,I feel I don't belong to them. It's like they accepting me because I'm a very pity and isolated person in the class.

I din mean to criticise you all in this post. I just want to tell that this is how I felt when being isolated in the class.

I guess for you guys,I was wrong in not seeing this in a positive way that you all are trying to accept me. But the moment being isolated in the class made me feel so emo.

Nonetheless,I still got to hang on in the class. I will and have to no matter what.

I guess I just need to try harder.

Bad way to welcome back my new school term

I can't believe how 'lucky' I am to be placed in 4A. Satisfied with this class? NO. I made my feelings and point clear that I'm not satisfied with the class I placed at. It's just simply because I'm the only one left out in my gang(Ming,Sean and Teo all in B class),and I can't accept this. We passed through PMR year with great success and I would certainly like and want to continue staying with them till SPM.

Some ppl might say I'm very unfriendly because why can't I make new close friends with others? Ya...I'm not ready to make new close friends. Certainly I feel comfortable staying with my gang because I'm not gonna risk anything for SPM. I feel it's the best for me to stay with them and I pray to God that the school will allow my permission to switch class to 4B.

Ups and Downs

Well,it's 2010 already. A whole new year begins today. For me,everything back to square one,everything starts from zero. No matter what's happened in the past.

To reflect back on 2009,well the title says it all. (thinking what to write......) For me,2009 was like I went through almost everything in life. 2009 was completely different from all the years that I went through. During this year,I've lost myself. First, thanks to the pressure of having to face so many exams. From the begining of 2009,I've constantly putting pressure on myself to live up to my 2009 main resolutions,that is to score straight As for PMR. Well,billioon of thanks to God,lady luck,my family,teachers and friends,I managed to do just that. Well,honestly I'm not really proud of this success. It is this PMR that made me lost myself,my confidence,my hapiness and so on. I guess because of this PMR,I din really get to really enjoy my life this year. Everyone's been saying I'm putting unnecessary pressure on myself causing me to lose the fun of enjoying life. Well,I think it's just a little too hard for me to enjoy my life with the pressure of having to do well in exam in the back of my mind. And yes,I think besides my family and my friends,my life is all about exam as a student rite now.

(thinking what more to write) Well,thx to HER,for the later part of 2009,my mental strength has improve so much. I feel thankful,because I managed to change one of my weakness into one of my strength. I hope this can help me for SPM and for the rest of my life. Thanks for everything. =)

Well,during 2009,I doubt of myself in so many things. Am I really just a person who knows nth in life except exam? Do I have attitude problems in treating certain things? Can I be a independent person in my life? I guess going into 2010,I just have to leave all these doubts behind and start a brand new year.I guess it's time to talk some good memories in 2009. Well,reflect back 2009,although it's such a suffering year for me,thr's still some good memories to reflect. How memorable is this to suffer this year with all the bunch of my frens? We shared laughter in the class,we rushed to tuition together,we discussed about studies in a gang,we argued because of different opinions,we angry at each other n forgive each other,we enjoyed life together after PMR and etc. I guess all these just help us to understand each other better(whether in a good or bad way). Honestly,ladies and gentlemen,THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING. lols.

And now,let's begin 2010 together(again...of coz...lame) and may each and everyone of us have another memorable years like 2009!!!

Skin Irritation

1st of all,this post's language will be damn cacated n informal. hope u understand xD

so,2day my dad bought me to a relative's house makan lunch. be4 i get into the story,let me describe the house 1st. it's my relative's new house n they hosted an open house. the house is a bangalo...triple story(see voca cacated)...gt swimming pool...design not tat nice in my eyes. OK...enuf of bs. let's begin the story.

so during the time i took my lunch,i felt skin irritation on my chest n neck. my aunt asked me why so red 1...i pun cakap nth n go garu garu it. at 1st i thought is becoz my shirt tat cause skin irritation...but tat shirt i've been wearing since last year CNY. so,prediction not acceptable.

went home...the irritation went through my whole upper body. i keep garu garu it until it's RED HOT(means it's f-ing gatal). my dad asked me go sleep a while 1st see will be better or not...but of coz no la.

so at night,mum brought me go jumpa doktor la. doktor cakap lu sakit mana(i swear he said tat to me),so i pun cakap sakit (ahem)...ceh...jkjk. told him i felt skin irritation. so he asked me to show my red hot sexy body...ahaha. then he told me 90% is because sea food,i said i din eat much but he said eat a bit also can be serious,jadi saya pun speechless. n guess wat's next? he said......HE'S GONNA TAKE INJECTION ON MY BUTT AKA MY ASS.

tell u seriously...WTF IT'S SO F-ING PAIN MF.

so finished injection,ambil ubat,balik kampung.

p.s. i told u it's f-ing informal n the language is cacated kan?
p.s. hope u guys understand.

BB

这段时间还是得过的 =）

时间是帮得上忙，可是也是一种折磨。

因为时间会不断地让回忆重现。

心是无法承受的。

但无论如何，这段时间, 还是得过的。

p.s. thx a lot for the consolation. xD