I realise I did not update anything about my college life. Well, I did attempt to update about it before this but it felt tough for me to string them into words back then.
Perhaps it seems my college life isn't exactly as wonderful as it should be for a normal college kid. All I(and of course others) remember is my college life is just about working my ass off to achieve my aspiration that I'm so desperate for. I paid a heavy price for that by sacrificing the ideal college life, just like what I did for my Form 3 life. But I would consider my one year and a half college life is a tiny bit better than my Form 3 life thanks to a little more wisdom due to age.
Someone is kind enough to remind me that I may have turn back to Form 3 Tiong Chin again. And yes, the Form 3 Tiong Chin isn't a nice person at all. Perhaps he/she is right. I took some time to reflect and think about this. Well, what I had been able to conclude for myself from the reflection and thinking is that people can change in many ways, be it good or bad or new self or old self, but old habits die hard.
Getting back to my college life, do I regret that I spent my college life like the way I spent my Form 3 life by secluding myself(most of the time) from people and the environment and just study? Let's just make it a little more reasonable and sensible for myself as a human being. I would say...well perhaps a little bit regret? OK this is a little bit of bullshitting, perhaps. Well, let's just say I'm glad that it ended the way I hope for, not exactly 100% of what I initially hope for, but close enough I guess, close enough. =)
Some final words for myself, others and my college life:
Thank you to myself for never losing the faith, determination and dedication in achieving my aspiration.
Thank you to all those college mates who are willing to lend a helping hand during my college life whenever I need it.
Thank you to my parents and family as well as all my close friends that support me and believe in me along the way.
And lastly, the end justifies the mean.
Sunday, January 26, 2014
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Fade Away - Wei Xin
Greetings to all my faithful friends who still keep an eye on my blog. Here I'm back again with an updated post. Perhaps a second one will be coming right after I finish this post. It may take you only a short while to read these posts but for me,it will take a very long time just to finish these two posts. T_T Anyway, this post is about friendship but since the video above is the major source of inspiration,I thought it would only be appropriate for me to put the song's name as the title of this post. Before I get down to the topic,let me comment a little about this video: nice song and meaningful lyrics. =)
Back to the topic, after I listened to this song, one question linger in my mind: What's the definition of a close friend? Someone who accepts you for who you are? Someone who shares your view and interest? Someone who is there to support you when you need him/her? Someone who is your companion in life? Someone whom you share your personal secrets? Someone whom you have a great deal of trust in? Someone who respect your decision even though he/she may disagree with you sometimes? Someone who is patient with your flaws? Someone who is willing to sacrifice in some way for you?
Many answers flooded my mind. As I try to evaluate a single friend that could fit those criteria, I find difficulty in single out one particular person. I ask myself why. Perhaps I'm too naive thinking that I could have a friend who should fill all those criteria in order to be considered my close friend. Things seem to have change little by little as we step into adulthood. I wonder where is the oh-so-good feeling that I once had when I'm with my friends. The kind of friendship that used to blossom during the good times seems like fading away.
Everyone has a different perspective about how a close friend should be. For me, a close friend can never be too close. The closer you are with that particular friend, the higher the expectation you wish that friend should fulfill. And the higher the expectation you wish that friend should fulfill, the higher the disappointment you may feel towards him/her when the expectation is not met. Lets face it. Most of us are selfish in some way towards our close friend. We expect too much from them when we become too close with that friend. And when that particular friend fell short of our expectation, we will be like Oh he/she is not my closest friend after all. That kind of close friendship that we think we have always seem to betray us when things do not go our way.
A even more ironic situation is when a new friend emerge in our life and that particular friend seems to be able to fulfill some kind of expectation that we feel our 'old' close friend couldn't, some of us will start to think OH this new friend is a closer friend than our 'old' close friend. The thing that I feel stupid about this situation is sometimes we are too irrational to make a quick conclusion on who is our closest friend. We can be so dumb that we decide to put our 'new' close friend ahead of our 'old' close friend when the friendship we develop with that new friend is only just a short while. And even more pathetic is our 'old' close friend will start to feel we don't value the friendship we used to have anymore and that close friendship which last many years starts to fade away. In the end, we lose a close friend.
Well, as I typed all these things out, not only did I just reflect on the situation that I saw my friends had been in, I also reflect on my own situation. Those situation that I mentioned above seem to occur when we are still young and naive. And it is this kind of naive that causes us to be irrational when we handle our friendship with others. Look, what does it take for us when we consider someone to be our close friend? I believe it takes a long time to have that kind of friendship which we consider close and valuable. Someone will not be such a close friend to you for such a long time if he/she doesn't see you as soulmate. I also believe both party have taken a considerable amount of time and factors before consider each other as close friend.
Some might argue that our close friend has changed. They aren't the same person that we used to know anymore. Well, I will argue back that everyone changes,isn't it? Whether change in a good way or bad way, people still can change, and that includes ourselves. You may say that that close friend has changed and doesn't value the friendship like they used to be, but why don't you think about that you too might have change and doesn't value the friendship like they used to be as well? And that you are the one that gives up on your close friend when you realize he/she isn't the close friend you hope he/she to be?
All the things I mentioned above can be very subjective. As the saying things are on the eyes of the beholder goes, it's up to you to decide who's your close friend is and how that particular friend should portray the character of your close friend. What I'm trying to point out is do not give up easily on the many years of friendship that you and your friends have. It doesn't matter whether our close friend has changed or not for as long as you hold the key of faith to the friendship and you still appreciate for what your close friend HAD been, I believe that friendship will last if you and your friend are meant to be soulmate. BUT please bear in mind of this: Friend forever is yes,but not close friend is forever. LOLS
As I finished this post and reflect on my own mistake in treating the friendship situation, I not only erase the difficulty in evaluating my close friend, but I found more than one friend that can be considered my close friends. =)
To all my friends that appear in my life, you are the best the friend I could ever have. =)
TC.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
We should have the magnanimity to acknowledge differences and appreciate others' capability
Greetings to all the readers who used to have read my blogs. First of all, I would like to say sorry to those always anticipate updates from my blog. Sorry for disappointing you so many times. If you have the feelings of OH-FOR-AGES-AND-CENTURIES-YOU-FINALLY-UPDATED, then I hope this post would be one of the interesting posts for you to read and rethink about what I wrote. This is because I need a great deal of inspiration to have ideas of what to update about. Personally,I don't like to update about my personal life or some random things. I don't want my posts to be those just to fill up your time. I would prefer to update things which are memorable to me as well as the things who could make you sit,re-read and are meaningful to you.
If you wonder where was this great deal of inspiration come from,it came from a conversation between me and my 学记（literally student reporter) senior. She and I started our conversation with our respective education plan until we slowly moved our topics to school life,personal experience in our student reporter life and finally life itself. And before I forget,the title of this post isn't really what I would just talk about in this post. This post generally contains the main points of our meaningful conversation. The title itself is basically what I learned from our conversation.
During your school life, do you ever have the attitude of judging people negatively and often overlook their ability because you dislike them or simply because you think you are smarter than them? Well,to be frank, I guess each and everyone of us including me,more or less has this kind of attitude. If you say you are the exception, I could only say you are probably the closest thing to God. xD Next,have you ever feel threatened when someone perform better than you at the things you feel you are good at? Lastly,have you ever wonder why there are always the feelings of heavy pressure from other people in your school who watch closely at what you did and are ready to pounce on your mistakes whenever you make one? If these questions make you start thinking,then I'm sure this post would be meaningful and interesting to you. =D
In my opinion,the root to the answer of all questions above is we lack the magnanimity to acknowledge differences and appreciate others' capability. In school,this problem occur to many of us,especially those so-called 'smart' student like me. To be honest, I guess many of us including me always have this negative mindset of judging people because we dislike them and we think we are smarter/better than them. And when we start to dislike them and feel we are better than them,we often overlook their capability and ability at doing things which we are not good at. These are what I feel often or sometimes occur to many of us including me in school.
Outside of school,and in my case my student reporter life,things are different. In the student reporter organisation,you can find many types of people from different backgrounds. I have a different mindset of judging my fellow student reporters aka Xue Ji compared to how I judge my schoolmates. I judge my fellow Xue Jis in a way more positive mindset. In school,I often overlook others' capability and ability in doing things which I'm not good at. But in student reporter, I actually admire others' capability and ability in doing things which I'm not good at.
It seems to be a little contradicting and funny to me when I noticed the difference. So I began to wonder why.
And I guess the simplest reason is competition. Yes,life in school itself is just like a competition. We always check out what our schoolmates/classmates did and we strive to be better than them. We always want to outscore our schoolmates and perform better in examination. And the funniest thing I found out about school life is the feeling of wanting to compete even brought to our extra-curricular activities!!! Students fighting for top position in clubs to get better extra-curricular marks. The president and vice president of the club having different opinions on matters regarding to the club. Club members side either with the president or the vice president because of personal preference. *facepalm*
The greatest thing for me to be part of the Xue Ji family is everyone of us is equal. All of us have one common identity in this big family: we are all student reporters. There are very little individualism in this family. There are no competition among us. The leader who is in charge of this little community always try his best to instill the concept of teamwork among us when we organised a camp. The leader always remind each and every Xue Jis that although we may be different from one another in terms of background and have different opinions towards one another,we are just about the same as one another in trying to achieve one common goal together. We feel bonded to each other and therefore we have a positive mindset towards other Xue Ji.
Do not get the wrong idea that I'm trying to say the school is like hell and my student reporter organisation is like heaven. What I am trying to point out is that we should have the magnanimity to acknowledge differences and appreciate others' capability IN SCHOOL. I am sure that there are people in school who acknowledge differences and appreciate others' capability. BUT way too less,too little compared to life as a student reporter. Often I feel that many of us,INCLUDING ME,always have a negative mindset in judging other people in the school. I just think that the culture of acknowledging differences and appreciating others' capability should be instilled among the students by the teachers. But to my disappointment,very little teachers notices the importance of this culture and the students themselves neglect it in their school life.
Notice that there are couple of times I mentioned INCLUDING ME in the 3rd and 4th paragraphs? If anyone who read this post feel offended,I want to reaffirm that I'm writing this topic in general and has no means to offend anyone because this post is sort of a self reflection for me. To be frank,I have those attitude to almost everyone in school,even to my best friends SOMETIMES. If I say I despise the difference between me and my schoolmates,I actually appreciate the difference between me and my fellow student reporters. The purpose of writing this post is just to share the lessons I learned and hopefully this could help to instill a positive mindset in you to embrace more on acknowledging differences and appreciating others' capability.
Since this post is sort of a self reflection for me,I hope that there are some people who feel the same way like me. IF NOT,I'm really writing this post for the guilty TC to read and reflect on himself. It would feel very awkward. HAHAHAHAHA!!! I also hope this post manage to get you to reflect on the topic I discussed above. Lets us improve together as a person. =D
Thanks for spending your time to read this post. =)
If you wonder where was this great deal of inspiration come from,it came from a conversation between me and my 学记（literally student reporter) senior. She and I started our conversation with our respective education plan until we slowly moved our topics to school life,personal experience in our student reporter life and finally life itself. And before I forget,the title of this post isn't really what I would just talk about in this post. This post generally contains the main points of our meaningful conversation. The title itself is basically what I learned from our conversation.
During your school life, do you ever have the attitude of judging people negatively and often overlook their ability because you dislike them or simply because you think you are smarter than them? Well,to be frank, I guess each and everyone of us including me,more or less has this kind of attitude. If you say you are the exception, I could only say you are probably the closest thing to God. xD Next,have you ever feel threatened when someone perform better than you at the things you feel you are good at? Lastly,have you ever wonder why there are always the feelings of heavy pressure from other people in your school who watch closely at what you did and are ready to pounce on your mistakes whenever you make one? If these questions make you start thinking,then I'm sure this post would be meaningful and interesting to you. =D
In my opinion,the root to the answer of all questions above is we lack the magnanimity to acknowledge differences and appreciate others' capability. In school,this problem occur to many of us,especially those so-called 'smart' student like me. To be honest, I guess many of us including me always have this negative mindset of judging people because we dislike them and we think we are smarter/better than them. And when we start to dislike them and feel we are better than them,we often overlook their capability and ability at doing things which we are not good at. These are what I feel often or sometimes occur to many of us including me in school.
Outside of school,and in my case my student reporter life,things are different. In the student reporter organisation,you can find many types of people from different backgrounds. I have a different mindset of judging my fellow student reporters aka Xue Ji compared to how I judge my schoolmates. I judge my fellow Xue Jis in a way more positive mindset. In school,I often overlook others' capability and ability in doing things which I'm not good at. But in student reporter, I actually admire others' capability and ability in doing things which I'm not good at.
It seems to be a little contradicting and funny to me when I noticed the difference. So I began to wonder why.
And I guess the simplest reason is competition. Yes,life in school itself is just like a competition. We always check out what our schoolmates/classmates did and we strive to be better than them. We always want to outscore our schoolmates and perform better in examination. And the funniest thing I found out about school life is the feeling of wanting to compete even brought to our extra-curricular activities!!! Students fighting for top position in clubs to get better extra-curricular marks. The president and vice president of the club having different opinions on matters regarding to the club. Club members side either with the president or the vice president because of personal preference. *facepalm*
The greatest thing for me to be part of the Xue Ji family is everyone of us is equal. All of us have one common identity in this big family: we are all student reporters. There are very little individualism in this family. There are no competition among us. The leader who is in charge of this little community always try his best to instill the concept of teamwork among us when we organised a camp. The leader always remind each and every Xue Jis that although we may be different from one another in terms of background and have different opinions towards one another,we are just about the same as one another in trying to achieve one common goal together. We feel bonded to each other and therefore we have a positive mindset towards other Xue Ji.
Do not get the wrong idea that I'm trying to say the school is like hell and my student reporter organisation is like heaven. What I am trying to point out is that we should have the magnanimity to acknowledge differences and appreciate others' capability IN SCHOOL. I am sure that there are people in school who acknowledge differences and appreciate others' capability. BUT way too less,too little compared to life as a student reporter. Often I feel that many of us,INCLUDING ME,always have a negative mindset in judging other people in the school. I just think that the culture of acknowledging differences and appreciating others' capability should be instilled among the students by the teachers. But to my disappointment,very little teachers notices the importance of this culture and the students themselves neglect it in their school life.
Notice that there are couple of times I mentioned INCLUDING ME in the 3rd and 4th paragraphs? If anyone who read this post feel offended,I want to reaffirm that I'm writing this topic in general and has no means to offend anyone because this post is sort of a self reflection for me. To be frank,I have those attitude to almost everyone in school,even to my best friends SOMETIMES. If I say I despise the difference between me and my schoolmates,I actually appreciate the difference between me and my fellow student reporters. The purpose of writing this post is just to share the lessons I learned and hopefully this could help to instill a positive mindset in you to embrace more on acknowledging differences and appreciating others' capability.
Since this post is sort of a self reflection for me,I hope that there are some people who feel the same way like me. IF NOT,I'm really writing this post for the guilty TC to read and reflect on himself. It would feel very awkward. HAHAHAHAHA!!! I also hope this post manage to get you to reflect on the topic I discussed above. Lets us improve together as a person. =D
Thanks for spending your time to read this post. =)
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Wave bye bye to 2011 and welcome 2012 with open arm
I do realise I have a blog and I guess The Life and Feelings of LTC would be the best place to put my feelings into words in order to sum up 2011.
Studies
When 2011 came, I knew that SPM is the final battle I needed to face in my secondary school life. I had a total different mindset in facing SPM compared to PMR. There was no heavy pressure on myself to achieve any target for SPM since I set no target for myself. I intended just to go through this year with the same work ethic and mentality I had in 2010,which brought me the biggest breakthrough in my studies. And it worked out well for me. Even though I did not achieve any breakthrough for my studies in 2011, I'm glad that I was able to keep up where I left off in 2010. After SPM ended, I have to say I found it relatively easier to handle compared to PMR. Not that I say SPM is an easy exam to face,but I felt so much more comfortable and so much more prepared for each and every single exam I took in Form 5, partly thanks to my big turnaround during 2010 which gave me so much confidence to face SPM. Never had I felt so enjoyable facing my studies. I'm very proud to say that I did not fell in the midst of hardship and did not let tears flow due to pressure. To sum up perhaps the most boring topic, I just hope that I will not regret with all the things that I had done for SPM this year and pray that everything will turn out nice and worthwhile when March 2012 came. =)
Class & School
In terms of this, there was no doubt I came in 2011 with a satisfied heart. I got exact the class I wanted to be in: 5 Angsana. I felt very comfortable being in this class because the study environment is perfectly suited for SPM. I really enjoyed with the life in this class. Everything works out so professionally. The class teacher,Encik Amir is awesome. And every single 5 Angsanians of 2011 is great. I felt so much more attached to each and every single of you. I felt belonged to this group of people and you all gave me a great year to live with.
As for school,I dun have much things to talk about. I guess being under the roof of 5 Angsana class is best enough to define my last year in secondary school life.
Friends
My biggest appreciation has to go to Ming Yang and Kar Leong. Throughout my life, I don't think I have any close friends until you two appeared in my life. I have to say the year that I really felt so much closer to you guys is this year. The first 2 years in my secondary school life I was more of a lone ranger. Even during Form 3 I din really felt that close to you guys until I was separated from you guys during 2010. People often say you won't miss something until you lost it. It was a huge relief to be in the same class with you two again this year. Thanks for guiding and supporting me not only this year,but my entire secondary school life. You two are my best bro. xD
To Sue Fen as well as Sook Yi, you two changed me into a better self. Despite the misunderstanding in the middle of this year,I felt so glad that we can resolve all the misunderstanding and become friends again. Thank you for being understanding as a friend and always be there whenever I need to pour out my feelings. I sincerely appreciate these friendships.
Kanesh, you have been a patient friend to me. It's great to have you as one of my study partners throughout the year. Gwen,your laugh will always enlighten not only my life but many people's life. A special friend indeed and I love you. =D Chia Xin,it's great to know you. Thanks for all the ride this year. Pauline and Christie,you two are great to be with. Thanks for all the fun time this year. Desmond,Kai Hoong,Jeff and Koon Thong,thanks for all the great time on the basketball court as well as off the court. Wan Jiun,your craziness is the one that I will miss the most about you.
Well,I guess that's all I got to say. It's not easy to get this post done since I really don't know what to write. But nonetheless I'm determined to get my blog posts in double digits every year. Guess I just managed it heh? xD
2011 is history and 2012 is the present as well as the future. I pray for myself as well as everyone. Let's hope for a better and happier 2012.
Studies
When 2011 came, I knew that SPM is the final battle I needed to face in my secondary school life. I had a total different mindset in facing SPM compared to PMR. There was no heavy pressure on myself to achieve any target for SPM since I set no target for myself. I intended just to go through this year with the same work ethic and mentality I had in 2010,which brought me the biggest breakthrough in my studies. And it worked out well for me. Even though I did not achieve any breakthrough for my studies in 2011, I'm glad that I was able to keep up where I left off in 2010. After SPM ended, I have to say I found it relatively easier to handle compared to PMR. Not that I say SPM is an easy exam to face,but I felt so much more comfortable and so much more prepared for each and every single exam I took in Form 5, partly thanks to my big turnaround during 2010 which gave me so much confidence to face SPM. Never had I felt so enjoyable facing my studies. I'm very proud to say that I did not fell in the midst of hardship and did not let tears flow due to pressure. To sum up perhaps the most boring topic, I just hope that I will not regret with all the things that I had done for SPM this year and pray that everything will turn out nice and worthwhile when March 2012 came. =)
Class & School
In terms of this, there was no doubt I came in 2011 with a satisfied heart. I got exact the class I wanted to be in: 5 Angsana. I felt very comfortable being in this class because the study environment is perfectly suited for SPM. I really enjoyed with the life in this class. Everything works out so professionally. The class teacher,Encik Amir is awesome. And every single 5 Angsanians of 2011 is great. I felt so much more attached to each and every single of you. I felt belonged to this group of people and you all gave me a great year to live with.
As for school,I dun have much things to talk about. I guess being under the roof of 5 Angsana class is best enough to define my last year in secondary school life.
Friends
My biggest appreciation has to go to Ming Yang and Kar Leong. Throughout my life, I don't think I have any close friends until you two appeared in my life. I have to say the year that I really felt so much closer to you guys is this year. The first 2 years in my secondary school life I was more of a lone ranger. Even during Form 3 I din really felt that close to you guys until I was separated from you guys during 2010. People often say you won't miss something until you lost it. It was a huge relief to be in the same class with you two again this year. Thanks for guiding and supporting me not only this year,but my entire secondary school life. You two are my best bro. xD
To Sue Fen as well as Sook Yi, you two changed me into a better self. Despite the misunderstanding in the middle of this year,I felt so glad that we can resolve all the misunderstanding and become friends again. Thank you for being understanding as a friend and always be there whenever I need to pour out my feelings. I sincerely appreciate these friendships.
Kanesh, you have been a patient friend to me. It's great to have you as one of my study partners throughout the year. Gwen,your laugh will always enlighten not only my life but many people's life. A special friend indeed and I love you. =D Chia Xin,it's great to know you. Thanks for all the ride this year. Pauline and Christie,you two are great to be with. Thanks for all the fun time this year. Desmond,Kai Hoong,Jeff and Koon Thong,thanks for all the great time on the basketball court as well as off the court. Wan Jiun,your craziness is the one that I will miss the most about you.
Well,I guess that's all I got to say. It's not easy to get this post done since I really don't know what to write. But nonetheless I'm determined to get my blog posts in double digits every year. Guess I just managed it heh? xD
2011 is history and 2012 is the present as well as the future. I pray for myself as well as everyone. Let's hope for a better and happier 2012.
From TC with love. =D
Thursday, December 8, 2011
So called "Singaporean"
Yeah,I know I always treat some people who are academically weaker with this attitude:
TC: Darn,too many silly mistakes,how to get A+ la if it's 91 marks and above? *show the irritating sad face*
Whenever I say this,I'm sure most of the people hate me for that,because they might be thinking "shuddup la you think you are so good arr". Or perhaps some people with low dignity will feel bad for themselves whenever I said this.
Anyway,I'm not going to satirize myself for being an arrogant person here. The purpose of writing this post is to safeguard the true Malaysians' dignity. *remember to cheer for me after reading this post =P*
Apparently,I saw someone writing in his blog saying that SPM is easy. Well,the tone of saying it is full of ego in my view. I guess the so-called "Singaporean" must have forgotten where he actually came from.
Honestly, if you ask me whether O Levels is harder or SPM is harder, I think the answer is very subjective in my humble opinion. Two factors come into my mind when I try to answer the question mentioned above. First of all,it depends on whether you are a Malaysian or Singaporean. Second,it depends whether you are a smart student or weak student.
Let's talk about the first factor then. It is undeniable that both Malaysians and Singaporeans are taking a different examination system. For the Malaysians, it is SPM. For the Singaporeans,it is O Levels. Honestly, when the so called ''Singaporean" said come on dude and dudettes(in Malaysia),get a grip,SPM is easy, I find him to be such a ridiculous person. I laughed,laughed at a person who was once considered a joke in examination(IN MALAYSIA), boasted about how easy is SPM syllabus,like a piece of cake with cream filling. I know people tend to be forgetful,but let me remind you that you were once the person who was shameful of yourself facing smart Malaysians whenever they asked about your marks. Yeah,time flies. You had transformed from a joke into something err...neither fish nor fowl or neither a Malaysian nor a Singaporean,which you considered yourself a class above than the rest of the Malaysians who cried about how difficult the questions are and how stressful the exam is. You have even grown up,taking your O Levels exam like a man,compared to a little mice last time who did not even have the guts to talk about exam with the Malaysian which you considered they should rejoice about how easy SPM is.
To round off the first factor,I feel that you should never say how easy SPM is. Yeah,you might say it is easy because you feel that whatever you learnt for O Levels is way harder than SPM. You do have a point here because you had studied in both Malaysia and Singapore. But PLEASE consider this: IF you have never studied in Singapore and you're still staying in Malaysia taking SPM like the rest of us,would you even dare to say to the smart Malaysians that SPM is easy? You might have the guts to say it,but you know what,there will be no so-called perfect Singaporean standing by your side on this case like what you have now when you said SPM is easy. Those Singaporeans might even look at you the same way you're looking at us,the Malaysians.
Let's move on to the second factor. You know what? I dare not say that I'm academically better than you because there's no way I could compare myself to you when we are taking a different examination system. Kudos and bravos to you for turning into a better student because you completed your secondary education in Singapore. However,I DO HAVE THE GUTS to say that I COULD BE BETTER THAN YOU if I'm studying in Singapore like you. You might be thinking this is bullshit,but I don't think it's bullshit because you have never proven to me that you are academically better than me when you were still in Malaysia. On the other hand,you too could never prove to me that you are academically better than me even if we both study in Singapore,because that will never happen. You said you took your O Levels like a man(even the girls). I can say the same thing to you that I,LIKE MOST OF THE MALAYSIANS,TOOK OUR SPM LIKE A MAN(EVEN THE GIRLS).
To say the least about the second factor,when you are smart enough,you won't think the exam is hard,like how you consider yourself to be smarter than those Malaysians who cried about SPM. No one in Malaysia here claim they are smart because we all felt that our SPM is not like a piece of cake with cream fillings,just like no one in Singapore claim they are smart because they all do not consider their O Levels is like a piece of cake with cream fillings. We,both Malaysians and Singaporeans took our exam like a man.
Yes,you are right that we,the Malaysians should stop pitying ourselves because you consider SPM to be easy. Very true,because WE,THE MALAYSIANS should pity you for taking O Levels which you consider to be way way harder than SPM,because you were the one who chose to study there,leaving your own country. So,good luck for your fucking exam.
Signing off. *gosh,I suddenly feel like I'm a hero to all the 2011 SPM students. OMG I'M SO PERASAN.*
TC: Darn,too many silly mistakes,how to get A+ la if it's 91 marks and above? *show the irritating sad face*
Whenever I say this,I'm sure most of the people hate me for that,because they might be thinking "shuddup la you think you are so good arr". Or perhaps some people with low dignity will feel bad for themselves whenever I said this.
Anyway,I'm not going to satirize myself for being an arrogant person here. The purpose of writing this post is to safeguard the true Malaysians' dignity. *remember to cheer for me after reading this post =P*
Apparently,I saw someone writing in his blog saying that SPM is easy. Well,the tone of saying it is full of ego in my view. I guess the so-called "Singaporean" must have forgotten where he actually came from.
Honestly, if you ask me whether O Levels is harder or SPM is harder, I think the answer is very subjective in my humble opinion. Two factors come into my mind when I try to answer the question mentioned above. First of all,it depends on whether you are a Malaysian or Singaporean. Second,it depends whether you are a smart student or weak student.
Let's talk about the first factor then. It is undeniable that both Malaysians and Singaporeans are taking a different examination system. For the Malaysians, it is SPM. For the Singaporeans,it is O Levels. Honestly, when the so called ''Singaporean" said come on dude and dudettes(in Malaysia),get a grip,SPM is easy, I find him to be such a ridiculous person. I laughed,laughed at a person who was once considered a joke in examination(IN MALAYSIA), boasted about how easy is SPM syllabus,like a piece of cake with cream filling. I know people tend to be forgetful,but let me remind you that you were once the person who was shameful of yourself facing smart Malaysians whenever they asked about your marks. Yeah,time flies. You had transformed from a joke into something err...neither fish nor fowl or neither a Malaysian nor a Singaporean,which you considered yourself a class above than the rest of the Malaysians who cried about how difficult the questions are and how stressful the exam is. You have even grown up,taking your O Levels exam like a man,compared to a little mice last time who did not even have the guts to talk about exam with the Malaysian which you considered they should rejoice about how easy SPM is.
To round off the first factor,I feel that you should never say how easy SPM is. Yeah,you might say it is easy because you feel that whatever you learnt for O Levels is way harder than SPM. You do have a point here because you had studied in both Malaysia and Singapore. But PLEASE consider this: IF you have never studied in Singapore and you're still staying in Malaysia taking SPM like the rest of us,would you even dare to say to the smart Malaysians that SPM is easy? You might have the guts to say it,but you know what,there will be no so-called perfect Singaporean standing by your side on this case like what you have now when you said SPM is easy. Those Singaporeans might even look at you the same way you're looking at us,the Malaysians.
Let's move on to the second factor. You know what? I dare not say that I'm academically better than you because there's no way I could compare myself to you when we are taking a different examination system. Kudos and bravos to you for turning into a better student because you completed your secondary education in Singapore. However,I DO HAVE THE GUTS to say that I COULD BE BETTER THAN YOU if I'm studying in Singapore like you. You might be thinking this is bullshit,but I don't think it's bullshit because you have never proven to me that you are academically better than me when you were still in Malaysia. On the other hand,you too could never prove to me that you are academically better than me even if we both study in Singapore,because that will never happen. You said you took your O Levels like a man(even the girls). I can say the same thing to you that I,LIKE MOST OF THE MALAYSIANS,TOOK OUR SPM LIKE A MAN(EVEN THE GIRLS).
To say the least about the second factor,when you are smart enough,you won't think the exam is hard,like how you consider yourself to be smarter than those Malaysians who cried about SPM. No one in Malaysia here claim they are smart because we all felt that our SPM is not like a piece of cake with cream fillings,just like no one in Singapore claim they are smart because they all do not consider their O Levels is like a piece of cake with cream fillings. We,both Malaysians and Singaporeans took our exam like a man.
Yes,you are right that we,the Malaysians should stop pitying ourselves because you consider SPM to be easy. Very true,because WE,THE MALAYSIANS should pity you for taking O Levels which you consider to be way way harder than SPM,because you were the one who chose to study there,leaving your own country. So,good luck for your fucking exam.
Signing off. *gosh,I suddenly feel like I'm a hero to all the 2011 SPM students. OMG I'M SO PERASAN.*
Friday, October 7, 2011
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Post-trial life
Well,since Gwen said my blog has been dead,I guess I might need to take a little effort to revive it before I get back to my studies. Just a reminder though. Dun read this if you are not interested to know about my life. It's quite long and boring...I think.
Well,I guess I don't have any emotional problem to talk about because I'm pretty fine with all the things around me. So,let's just talk about life itself. Ya,post-trial life.
Last Wednesday,the day when I had my last paper for trial,Chemistry P1. Pauline was surprised that I did not gather my usual gang to check the answers for the paper,which I normally did. Well,I was too overjoyed that it's finally over and I dun wish to let the paper destroy that little pure excitement of finishing the trial. I couldn't sit still when Pn. Suhana was going to collect the papers. A little rise smile from her face showed that she understood how relieve I was that the trial is over. I guess nothing much happened after I went home. Facebooking, sleeping,went to tuition and then playing PS. There goes my 1st day after finish trial.
Last Thursday, I couldn't remember what significant thing happened that day,or perhaps nothing significant at all. Went to school. Did the usual thing. Talked n talked somemore. Went home. The same thing I did the previous day. Sorry,I can't remember anything about this particular day anymore.
Last Friday, went to school. The teacher gave us a little briefing about the graduation ceremony. The main topic was our etika pemakaian. During that briefing,I borrowed a book from Kanesh entitled Honor Among Thieves by Jeffrey Archer. Since I planned to enjoy that particular week after exam finished,I just randomly grabbed the book from him n read for fun. Nice book though. Ming,Teo and Kanesh have been reading Jeffery Archer's book since dunno when. I din follow them to read because I dun like to read much. Perhaps the only book which I'm really interested in reading is about China history. But I din get myself reading this year though since revision book has been my top choice this year...sort of. So,after the briefing,we had some so-called-moral programme,which is the particular programme to 'spend our time wisely' when the Muslim students have their so-called-more-meaningful Islam programme. Well,I have to admit this activity is better than Pn. Lim's counselling programme though. I really couldn't stand 3-4 hours of meditation with her,thank god. After school, I went home, ate my lunch,bathed and watched some live badminton match of our proud Datuk Lee Chong Wei. After that,from 5p.m. to 12a.m. I did my homework for the Sunway A-Level Scholarship interview. 7 hours. Wow,I was so tired because I din take my usual afternoon nap. I was eagerly anticipated for the interview that was about to take place the following day. First time I attended an interview. Ya,I'm pretty hardworking and serious towards my 1st interview.
Last Saturday, I followed Kanesh's father's car to Sunway College. Arrived there,had a little discussions with fellow SBSians before entering a hall to have a little briefing about the interview. During the briefing,I was going through my homework for the interview. Out of nowhere,someone I known was asking me whether I was memorising for the interview. What the fuck?! So you think I'm some little nerd student who dunno how to think to speak? ==
After the briefing,the interview started. Gwen was the 1st among the SBSians to go for the interview. Had some fine moments with Kanesh,and my seniors from Sunway before I went for my interview. One student from Sunway led me and another Indian student to the outside of the classroom where we will have our interview. Was given a case studies for 15 mins before I entered the room. It's about child behavior. Guess it's quite a general topic as compared to my other friends. Kanesh's one is about dog. Pearly's and Christie's one about aeroplane. Michelle's one is about junk food. I took around 8 mins to get a deep understanding about my case studies. It din take long since it's a relatively common topic. I asked to go into the interview room early but the student asked me to wait. So,I looked outside the window. Watched the bright sunshine. Tried to compose myself.
When I got into the interview room,I wasn't feeling nervous. Guess I did a great job in composing and relaxing myself to get myself ready. I had a relatively nice interview though,for 1st timer like me. I was asked about my students reporter and basketball. Din get nervous during the interview. Hope that I gave a good impression for the interviewer. Perhaps I got a little too excited in the end. Forgot to give a handshake to the interviewer. Left the room with a thank you.
After the interview, Kanesh's dad fetched me home. I got some bathing before I followed his father car to tuition again. Add Maths class was usual but I was not in the mood to study Motion along a straight line since I wanted to enjoy life without worrying about studies. Maths class was about the same. Wasn't really listening to Kung since it's just some questions for revision. I finished the questions on my own. Got my 50 bucks from him as a reward for my trial's maths exam. After tuition,went to eat at Wong Si Nai. Had some great chatting with Teo,Sok Yean,Sook Yi and Miow before I decided to stay for bio extra class. Well,his class was jam packed since many people that were not suppose to be in the class were in the class,including me. Had some great moment with the SBU gang. The class ended at 9p.m. 4 hours and he din teach much...usual la. After that,went home by followed Michelle's parents' car.
Last Sunday, I did a little shopping with my mum at Jusco for my graduation's attire. I dunno how to describe the attire since I dun have good English to describe it. Just want to say that I felt I looked great in the outfit. Sook Yi commented I need a nice haircut to look better during graduation.
I guess that's all for this. This week has been about wasting time chit-chatting while waiting to get back the trial results. BYE!
Well,I guess I don't have any emotional problem to talk about because I'm pretty fine with all the things around me. So,let's just talk about life itself. Ya,post-trial life.
Last Wednesday,the day when I had my last paper for trial,Chemistry P1. Pauline was surprised that I did not gather my usual gang to check the answers for the paper,which I normally did. Well,I was too overjoyed that it's finally over and I dun wish to let the paper destroy that little pure excitement of finishing the trial. I couldn't sit still when Pn. Suhana was going to collect the papers. A little rise smile from her face showed that she understood how relieve I was that the trial is over. I guess nothing much happened after I went home. Facebooking, sleeping,went to tuition and then playing PS. There goes my 1st day after finish trial.
Last Thursday, I couldn't remember what significant thing happened that day,or perhaps nothing significant at all. Went to school. Did the usual thing. Talked n talked somemore. Went home. The same thing I did the previous day. Sorry,I can't remember anything about this particular day anymore.
Last Friday, went to school. The teacher gave us a little briefing about the graduation ceremony. The main topic was our etika pemakaian. During that briefing,I borrowed a book from Kanesh entitled Honor Among Thieves by Jeffrey Archer. Since I planned to enjoy that particular week after exam finished,I just randomly grabbed the book from him n read for fun. Nice book though. Ming,Teo and Kanesh have been reading Jeffery Archer's book since dunno when. I din follow them to read because I dun like to read much. Perhaps the only book which I'm really interested in reading is about China history. But I din get myself reading this year though since revision book has been my top choice this year...sort of. So,after the briefing,we had some so-called-moral programme,which is the particular programme to 'spend our time wisely' when the Muslim students have their so-called-more-meaningful Islam programme. Well,I have to admit this activity is better than Pn. Lim's counselling programme though. I really couldn't stand 3-4 hours of meditation with her,thank god. After school, I went home, ate my lunch,bathed and watched some live badminton match of our proud Datuk Lee Chong Wei. After that,from 5p.m. to 12a.m. I did my homework for the Sunway A-Level Scholarship interview. 7 hours. Wow,I was so tired because I din take my usual afternoon nap. I was eagerly anticipated for the interview that was about to take place the following day. First time I attended an interview. Ya,I'm pretty hardworking and serious towards my 1st interview.
Last Saturday, I followed Kanesh's father's car to Sunway College. Arrived there,had a little discussions with fellow SBSians before entering a hall to have a little briefing about the interview. During the briefing,I was going through my homework for the interview. Out of nowhere,someone I known was asking me whether I was memorising for the interview. What the fuck?! So you think I'm some little nerd student who dunno how to think to speak? ==
After the briefing,the interview started. Gwen was the 1st among the SBSians to go for the interview. Had some fine moments with Kanesh,and my seniors from Sunway before I went for my interview. One student from Sunway led me and another Indian student to the outside of the classroom where we will have our interview. Was given a case studies for 15 mins before I entered the room. It's about child behavior. Guess it's quite a general topic as compared to my other friends. Kanesh's one is about dog. Pearly's and Christie's one about aeroplane. Michelle's one is about junk food. I took around 8 mins to get a deep understanding about my case studies. It din take long since it's a relatively common topic. I asked to go into the interview room early but the student asked me to wait. So,I looked outside the window. Watched the bright sunshine. Tried to compose myself.
When I got into the interview room,I wasn't feeling nervous. Guess I did a great job in composing and relaxing myself to get myself ready. I had a relatively nice interview though,for 1st timer like me. I was asked about my students reporter and basketball. Din get nervous during the interview. Hope that I gave a good impression for the interviewer. Perhaps I got a little too excited in the end. Forgot to give a handshake to the interviewer. Left the room with a thank you.
After the interview, Kanesh's dad fetched me home. I got some bathing before I followed his father car to tuition again. Add Maths class was usual but I was not in the mood to study Motion along a straight line since I wanted to enjoy life without worrying about studies. Maths class was about the same. Wasn't really listening to Kung since it's just some questions for revision. I finished the questions on my own. Got my 50 bucks from him as a reward for my trial's maths exam. After tuition,went to eat at Wong Si Nai. Had some great chatting with Teo,Sok Yean,Sook Yi and Miow before I decided to stay for bio extra class. Well,his class was jam packed since many people that were not suppose to be in the class were in the class,including me. Had some great moment with the SBU gang. The class ended at 9p.m. 4 hours and he din teach much...usual la. After that,went home by followed Michelle's parents' car.
Last Sunday, I did a little shopping with my mum at Jusco for my graduation's attire. I dunno how to describe the attire since I dun have good English to describe it. Just want to say that I felt I looked great in the outfit. Sook Yi commented I need a nice haircut to look better during graduation.
I guess that's all for this. This week has been about wasting time chit-chatting while waiting to get back the trial results. BYE!
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Please don't be too tolerant on me
I feel so stupid when this came into my mind but after thinking about it,I'm a little unsure whether I should feel glad or sad about it.
You know I consider myself very lucky because I have a bunch of friends who understand me. And they have been very tolerant and accept me for who I am. But after some kind of dispute with someone,I started to feel bad for myself.
My good friends have been way too tolerant on me. I never doubt that I really had a problem in controlling my temper when things doesn't go my way. When I'm losing my temper,my anger started to overwhelm my conscious. My good friends started to be passive towards my anger because they knew well that I couldn't really think wisely when I'm angry. To make matter worse,I started to assume that this is me and if my friends can't accept my temper,don't be friend with me then. Whatever I done wrong in life,they just assume that oh this is TC,so just let it be. Because of this,I started to lose the sense that I need to learn from my mistake because my good friends should be tolerant and forgive what I done wrong.
Well,I hope my friends can do a simple favor for me by not being too tolerant towards what I did wrong. I know most of you assume that it's pointless to explain to me because I'll never listen. But please,don't do that. Point out what I did wrong and explain to me. Let me value myself. When the explanation goes into my brain,it would become a valuable lesson to me.
Please, teach me the values of life.
You know I consider myself very lucky because I have a bunch of friends who understand me. And they have been very tolerant and accept me for who I am. But after some kind of dispute with someone,I started to feel bad for myself.
My good friends have been way too tolerant on me. I never doubt that I really had a problem in controlling my temper when things doesn't go my way. When I'm losing my temper,my anger started to overwhelm my conscious. My good friends started to be passive towards my anger because they knew well that I couldn't really think wisely when I'm angry. To make matter worse,I started to assume that this is me and if my friends can't accept my temper,don't be friend with me then. Whatever I done wrong in life,they just assume that oh this is TC,so just let it be. Because of this,I started to lose the sense that I need to learn from my mistake because my good friends should be tolerant and forgive what I done wrong.
Well,I hope my friends can do a simple favor for me by not being too tolerant towards what I did wrong. I know most of you assume that it's pointless to explain to me because I'll never listen. But please,don't do that. Point out what I did wrong and explain to me. Let me value myself. When the explanation goes into my brain,it would become a valuable lesson to me.
Please, teach me the values of life.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
没想到你是如此感性。=）
回忆起我如何放下那半年都不到的爱情，真觉得没什么大不了。
阅读了你的部落格，我开始觉得你是如此地感性。
从你的那些字里，我意识到你是多么地爱他，知道你正在很痛苦地放下那个三年的恋情。
我断然地觉得自己很侥幸。那半年都不到的爱情虽然对我来说算是轰轰烈烈，但是我可以很潇洒地放下。=)
虽然我是暗恋你，但是我和你纯粹只是片面之交的朋友。
但是你的感性不仅让我对你暗恋的欲望没有如此深了，而且让我更欣赏你。
阅读了你的部落格，我开始觉得你是如此地感性。
从你的那些字里，我意识到你是多么地爱他，知道你正在很痛苦地放下那个三年的恋情。
我断然地觉得自己很侥幸。那半年都不到的爱情虽然对我来说算是轰轰烈烈，但是我可以很潇洒地放下。=)
虽然我是暗恋你，但是我和你纯粹只是片面之交的朋友。
但是你的感性不仅让我对你暗恋的欲望没有如此深了，而且让我更欣赏你。
Thursday, June 30, 2011
The winner and the pretender
If you are a great winner,no one will be jealous of you,but admiring you instead. If you are the pretender and just appear to be better than most of the people when the fact is you only win in small occasion,no doubt people will be jealous of you because they think you are just too cocky and they too can be better than you.
It just seems that you are not so a great winner to them. People don't just despise you for your so-called achievement, people despises you for pretending you achieved something. Quit your insecurity of people's jealousy and stop finding excuses to convince yourself that people despises you because you are too perfect for them.
And,just in case you didn't notice,you should mirror yourself and probably you will find out that you are just the same as the others. There is a chance part of you are just as selfish and as jealous as you had mentioned. You are just jealous of others who are least successful but apparently more likeable than you. Thus,you go all the way defending yourself for not being accepted by others because they are just jealous of you.
Lastly,continue your effort to be a true winner that wins people's admiration. No one will take anything away from what you really achieved or contributed by simply being jealous.
A true winner wins people's admiration by action.
A pretender wins only jealousy by talking.
p.s. I do not intend to make myself look mighty or holly by just writing this post. I wrote this for you to reflect back on yourself. Everyone needs to reflect themselves at certain point in their life.
Come on,you are just like me,human. Selfish,jealous and disgusting as you mentioned. Yes, I am selfish,jealous and disgusting because I'm a human too. And you said human nature is selfish,jealous and disgusting. I guess you are selfish,jealous and as disgusting as those who criticized you. If you say you are not,good for you then. Perhaps I should look up to you as my prophet or maybe my next generation will be praying at your feet as the holly god.
You can say I should judge myself before judging and criticizing others. I learned my lessons and reflected myself in my life. I WAS a cocky and immature person and at the same time I AM cocky and immature. That's human. A human reflects himself/herself and changes but can never be perfect.
Lastly,there's no fucking need for me to win the whole world's heart to be with me against you by just simply writing this. I do not need to win people's heart,but I intend for people to follow my heart. If they do not accept my mistakes or attitude or opinions,fine for me. I accept their opinion.
BUT YOU? Trying your fucking best to win people's heart and at the same time criticize those who do not accept you and jealous of you by finding excuses for your flaws. People ONLY criticizes you for a reason. You don't get an echo if the wall doesn't reflect.
Seriously,if you could just ignore others' jealousy of you and reflect on your high and achievement in your life,you will be much happier. I believe there's always friends to share those high and joy with you. More importantly,you should really judge and reflect yourself. There's no need to be fuss over others' criticism of you if you are right by your own right. Why goes writing status and post to vent your frustrations of others' criticism of you? It just led people to know there's people who criticize you and MOST importantly, let those who criticized you to continue criticizing you.
p.s. Honestly,put the villain tag on me because I believe you had one yourself too. =)
It just seems that you are not so a great winner to them. People don't just despise you for your so-called achievement, people despises you for pretending you achieved something. Quit your insecurity of people's jealousy and stop finding excuses to convince yourself that people despises you because you are too perfect for them.
And,just in case you didn't notice,you should mirror yourself and probably you will find out that you are just the same as the others. There is a chance part of you are just as selfish and as jealous as you had mentioned. You are just jealous of others who are least successful but apparently more likeable than you. Thus,you go all the way defending yourself for not being accepted by others because they are just jealous of you.
Lastly,continue your effort to be a true winner that wins people's admiration. No one will take anything away from what you really achieved or contributed by simply being jealous.
A true winner wins people's admiration by action.
A pretender wins only jealousy by talking.
p.s. I do not intend to make myself look mighty or holly by just writing this post. I wrote this for you to reflect back on yourself. Everyone needs to reflect themselves at certain point in their life.
Come on,you are just like me,human. Selfish,jealous and disgusting as you mentioned. Yes, I am selfish,jealous and disgusting because I'm a human too. And you said human nature is selfish,jealous and disgusting. I guess you are selfish,jealous and as disgusting as those who criticized you. If you say you are not,good for you then. Perhaps I should look up to you as my prophet or maybe my next generation will be praying at your feet as the holly god.
You can say I should judge myself before judging and criticizing others. I learned my lessons and reflected myself in my life. I WAS a cocky and immature person and at the same time I AM cocky and immature. That's human. A human reflects himself/herself and changes but can never be perfect.
Lastly,there's no fucking need for me to win the whole world's heart to be with me against you by just simply writing this. I do not need to win people's heart,but I intend for people to follow my heart. If they do not accept my mistakes or attitude or opinions,fine for me. I accept their opinion.
BUT YOU? Trying your fucking best to win people's heart and at the same time criticize those who do not accept you and jealous of you by finding excuses for your flaws. People ONLY criticizes you for a reason. You don't get an echo if the wall doesn't reflect.
Seriously,if you could just ignore others' jealousy of you and reflect on your high and achievement in your life,you will be much happier. I believe there's always friends to share those high and joy with you. More importantly,you should really judge and reflect yourself. There's no need to be fuss over others' criticism of you if you are right by your own right. Why goes writing status and post to vent your frustrations of others' criticism of you? It just led people to know there's people who criticize you and MOST importantly, let those who criticized you to continue criticizing you.
p.s. Honestly,put the villain tag on me because I believe you had one yourself too. =)
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