Please don't be too tolerant on me

I feel so stupid when this came into my mind but after thinking about it,I'm a little unsure whether I should feel glad or sad about it.

You know I consider myself very lucky because I have a bunch of friends who understand me. And they have been very tolerant and accept me for who I am. But after some kind of dispute with someone,I started to feel bad for myself.

My good friends have been way too tolerant on me. I never doubt that I really had a problem in controlling my temper when things doesn't go my way. When I'm losing my temper,my anger started to overwhelm my conscious. My good friends started to be passive towards my anger because they knew well that I couldn't really think wisely when I'm angry. To make matter worse,I started to assume that this is me and if my friends can't accept my temper,don't be friend with me then. Whatever I done wrong in life,they just assume that oh this is TC,so just let it be. Because of this,I started to lose the sense that I need to learn from my mistake because my good friends should be tolerant and forgive what I done wrong.

Well,I hope my friends can do a simple favor for me by not being too tolerant towards what I did wrong. I know most of you assume that it's pointless to explain to me because I'll never listen. But please,don't do that. Point out what I did wrong and explain to me. Let me value myself. When the explanation goes into my brain,it would become a valuable lesson to me.

Please, teach me the values of life.