Well,just a short update when I'm resting from playing with protons and electrons. LOLS
I guess I had finally managed to find a balance in my relationship with my old buddy and my new class. You see,I'm living in a class which almost full of girls,my class got only 6 guys. Not really comfortable in 4A at the start of this year because I've got some negative thoughts about my new class and I'm too reluctant to mix with new person instead of sticking with my old buddy. But I guess time is the solution for everything. I actually feel very much fresh mixing with person which I've never been in the same class with be4!!! HAHA...ya...I was just too stubborn on the matter of which I would very much prefer to be same class with my old buddy.
They are right. The problem is not whether they wan to mix with me or not,it's whether I want to mix with them or not. I'm finding it settled living in 4A. =)
BUT thr's bad being in 4A for me. Because Sook Yi and Sue Fen kept saying I'm to gay. WT TOOOT. It's all because of living in 4A which almost full of girls that caused me to become gaylish. YOUR GIRLS' FAULTS. LOLS xD
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
Forever in my heart
23 of May has passed.
2 years has officially over.
Everything that happened between us in this two years
I'll sealed it somewhere in my heart
Deep inside my heart
And never unseal it anymore
As this marks a new era between our friendship
HELLO MY FRIENDS
=)
2 years has officially over.
Everything that happened between us in this two years
I'll sealed it somewhere in my heart
Deep inside my heart
And never unseal it anymore
As this marks a new era between our friendship
HELLO MY FRIENDS
=)
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Never is never
I always told my fren never to say never,but sometimes you just have to eat back your words.
From 23.5.08 to 23.5.10,in just two years time,we had becomes from frenz to couple back to frenz.
We had went through a lot of things.
You:
fall in love > giving up > got together > broke up > ignored > friends
Me:
Frenz > One-sided love from you > accepted your love and got together > broke up > ignored > frenz
From accidentally saw you in Jusco
Started to sms with you
Went through 10 May 2008 owing you a M & M chocolate for your birthday
Hurting you when I told Amanda that I felt annoying that you keep smsed me
Your confession to me,telling everything out to me
To we started to take one step further in our relationship
Went to eat together after koko for two weeks
Then you said you're giving up
To your 2009 birthday,listening to your piano playing,having a memorable b'day party not only to you but to myself
I started to accept ur love
Got together
Fall for you during Van's b'day party
Went to Leisure Mall for our only movie 17 again
Goin through 4 exams together
Losing my 1st kiss
Calling you almost every single nights talking like nobody business
Finished PMR together,days and nights with your accompany
Our relationship started to go downhill
Went to Genting together having our last sweet memories together
Broke up on Halloween
Argue
We started to go through this tough time
And FINALLY we became frenz back again,no more ill feelings to each other
=)
We change each other
We cried for each other
We went through every single moment together,sweet and bitter,happy and sad
All in 2 years time
It's been a cycle,started 23 of May and ended on 23 of May. Although we never go far,I'm glad it back to square one.
I will never able to forget everything in this 2 years,never in my life.
23rd of May,we both made it memorable.
And for the last time,I loved you.
From 23.5.08 to 23.5.10,in just two years time,we had becomes from frenz to couple back to frenz.
We had went through a lot of things.
You:
fall in love > giving up > got together > broke up > ignored > friends
Me:
Frenz > One-sided love from you > accepted your love and got together > broke up > ignored > frenz
From accidentally saw you in Jusco
Started to sms with you
Went through 10 May 2008 owing you a M & M chocolate for your birthday
Hurting you when I told Amanda that I felt annoying that you keep smsed me
Your confession to me,telling everything out to me
To we started to take one step further in our relationship
Went to eat together after koko for two weeks
Then you said you're giving up
To your 2009 birthday,listening to your piano playing,having a memorable b'day party not only to you but to myself
I started to accept ur love
Got together
Fall for you during Van's b'day party
Went to Leisure Mall for our only movie 17 again
Goin through 4 exams together
Losing my 1st kiss
Calling you almost every single nights talking like nobody business
Finished PMR together,days and nights with your accompany
Our relationship started to go downhill
Went to Genting together having our last sweet memories together
Broke up on Halloween
Argue
We started to go through this tough time
And FINALLY we became frenz back again,no more ill feelings to each other
=)
We change each other
We cried for each other
We went through every single moment together,sweet and bitter,happy and sad
All in 2 years time
It's been a cycle,started 23 of May and ended on 23 of May. Although we never go far,I'm glad it back to square one.
I will never able to forget everything in this 2 years,never in my life.
23rd of May,we both made it memorable.
And for the last time,I loved you.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Short and Random
First of all,let me wish Leong Sue Fen HAPPY BIRTHDAY on my blog.
Gosh...she's onlining but I dun have the guts to talk to her.
Goin to school it's getting more and more meaningless.
No offence to Sook Yi but your post about Sue Fen's b'day is like so so to me only? But I think ur partner will appreciate it eh?
Class photo session 2day was good. Proudly to announce 4A guys post like James Bond 2day. xD
for me,James Bok...xD
Exam 7 days to go!!!
yup...exam 7 days to go...back to study...bye
Gosh...she's onlining but I dun have the guts to talk to her.
Goin to school it's getting more and more meaningless.
No offence to Sook Yi but your post about Sue Fen's b'day is like so so to me only? But I think ur partner will appreciate it eh?
Class photo session 2day was good. Proudly to announce 4A guys post like James Bond 2day. xD
for me,James Bok...xD
Exam 7 days to go!!!
yup...exam 7 days to go...back to study...bye
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Random
I realised when I think of studies it really freaks me out. The world feels so much wonderful whenever I just forgot about studies(in which pauline always ask me to) for a moment...ya...for a moment...when I'm going to bed. Guess probably it's because I don't feel nice with my class,so I guess it's no surprise that school and studies freak me out recently.
I also realised whenever I think of the fact that I lost my gang as my classmates,how suffering am I in almost every aspect in my life. Studies,friendship,human relationship and etc. Days passed without joys as I dun feel joyful with my current life. I had come to a conclusion the reason for all of these is because I lost the familiar faces in my life. How I wish I can just turn back in time,back to once wonderful time.
Ya,frankly I also realised if I keep talking about how unhappy is my life,people will be bored to read the same stories over and over again. And I would be emo again for stupid reason.
Let's talk about my suffering to strike a balance between co-curiculum and studies. I just dunno how to get a balance between both of that. I decided to go to the jamboree since it contains 17 koko marks but I need to pay a price for that. Jamboree starts 13 May to 15/16 May. And mid-term starts 17 May...which means I probably lost about 3 or 4 days chance to study for mid-term. And then comes another camp which the pengakap teachers asked me to join. The dunno-wat-lencana-ekspedisi-camp,which falls on 8 and 9 May. The teachers hope that I really can join the camp. It does bring me benefits as I can learn more thing and get more lencana for pengakap. But seriously,I'm already out of time to study for mid-term and I guess it's too late to do all those stuff now that I'm already 16 years old and facing a hectic SPM life. So,forgot about the camp on 8 to 9 May. Studies come 1st for me. lol
How proud am I to bring some new dimension for our school pengakap. One could imagine how sucky is our school pengakap be4 this year. People often ponteng or complain coming to pengakap is a waste of time. It's because our school pengakap is not active at all. Even the basic lencana exam our school also dun have. Feeling awkful for our school pengakap,I decided to give some suggestion to teacher that we start those exam this year. And I guess it started quite well. At least I guess pengakap aint that dull anymore with the introduction of those lencana exam. Hopefully,the pengakap member will be active with the activities that the AJK carry on.
Leaving the school matter,let me talk about the xue ji aka student reporter. Sorry to all the xue ge n xue jie but I still dun feel enjoy with the outdoor activities xue ji had. Mayb it's because of my studies or mayb it's because I'm not good at socialising or mayb becoz I dun feel good to get to know so many new frenz in my life in such a short time. But anyway,I will stay on no worry. AND! (it's kinda late to update about that) I got one of my article posted on the newspaper!!! Well,I really din think that will happen actually. Coz in order to get the xue ji certificate,one needs to send at least one article to xue ji guan huai and get two articles posted on the sin chew da du hui columm(simply spell). So I simply send one article to xue ji guan huai to start my interest in writing article for my xue ji. And it posted. YAY! lol...I wrote about Michael Schumacher. The theme is how he fare since rejoining F1.
To teenage's love problem. gosh,I feel I'm really stupid at how I treat my feeling to her. I actually scare of someone I think I like/get attracted to. She like a dark angel for me(so old style rite?). Dark symbolise I scare and angel symbolise that how pretty she is for me. And thx to my fren,I think she knew I like/get attracted to her,which makes me even scare/shy to see her. I just can't help it. It feels so awkful whenever I see her in tuition. Jeff said people happy to see hot chicks,but I scare to see pretty girl. How weird I am? =O
Let me see anything more to talk?...I guess tat's all I could talk. Guess this post will be enuf to satisfy my readers rite(ceh...talk like I had a big fan base on my blog only)?
Well,ming,I updated...PUAS!? haha
tata
I also realised whenever I think of the fact that I lost my gang as my classmates,how suffering am I in almost every aspect in my life. Studies,friendship,human relationship and etc. Days passed without joys as I dun feel joyful with my current life. I had come to a conclusion the reason for all of these is because I lost the familiar faces in my life. How I wish I can just turn back in time,back to once wonderful time.
Ya,frankly I also realised if I keep talking about how unhappy is my life,people will be bored to read the same stories over and over again. And I would be emo again for stupid reason.
Let's talk about my suffering to strike a balance between co-curiculum and studies. I just dunno how to get a balance between both of that. I decided to go to the jamboree since it contains 17 koko marks but I need to pay a price for that. Jamboree starts 13 May to 15/16 May. And mid-term starts 17 May...which means I probably lost about 3 or 4 days chance to study for mid-term. And then comes another camp which the pengakap teachers asked me to join. The dunno-wat-lencana-ekspedisi-camp,which falls on 8 and 9 May. The teachers hope that I really can join the camp. It does bring me benefits as I can learn more thing and get more lencana for pengakap. But seriously,I'm already out of time to study for mid-term and I guess it's too late to do all those stuff now that I'm already 16 years old and facing a hectic SPM life. So,forgot about the camp on 8 to 9 May. Studies come 1st for me. lol
How proud am I to bring some new dimension for our school pengakap. One could imagine how sucky is our school pengakap be4 this year. People often ponteng or complain coming to pengakap is a waste of time. It's because our school pengakap is not active at all. Even the basic lencana exam our school also dun have. Feeling awkful for our school pengakap,I decided to give some suggestion to teacher that we start those exam this year. And I guess it started quite well. At least I guess pengakap aint that dull anymore with the introduction of those lencana exam. Hopefully,the pengakap member will be active with the activities that the AJK carry on.
Leaving the school matter,let me talk about the xue ji aka student reporter. Sorry to all the xue ge n xue jie but I still dun feel enjoy with the outdoor activities xue ji had. Mayb it's because of my studies or mayb it's because I'm not good at socialising or mayb becoz I dun feel good to get to know so many new frenz in my life in such a short time. But anyway,I will stay on no worry. AND! (it's kinda late to update about that) I got one of my article posted on the newspaper!!! Well,I really din think that will happen actually. Coz in order to get the xue ji certificate,one needs to send at least one article to xue ji guan huai and get two articles posted on the sin chew da du hui columm(simply spell). So I simply send one article to xue ji guan huai to start my interest in writing article for my xue ji. And it posted. YAY! lol...I wrote about Michael Schumacher. The theme is how he fare since rejoining F1.
To teenage's love problem. gosh,I feel I'm really stupid at how I treat my feeling to her. I actually scare of someone I think I like/get attracted to. She like a dark angel for me(so old style rite?). Dark symbolise I scare and angel symbolise that how pretty she is for me. And thx to my fren,I think she knew I like/get attracted to her,which makes me even scare/shy to see her. I just can't help it. It feels so awkful whenever I see her in tuition. Jeff said people happy to see hot chicks,but I scare to see pretty girl. How weird I am? =O
Let me see anything more to talk?...I guess tat's all I could talk. Guess this post will be enuf to satisfy my readers rite(ceh...talk like I had a big fan base on my blog only)?
Well,ming,I updated...PUAS!? haha
tata
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Be sure simple really means simple
I realised more and more the need to live a simple life. Simple life leads to hapiness. It really does. As a city people,we don't feel happy because we always want more. We're greedy in our life that we don't have enough of the thing we want in our life. We use all of our time to chase for these things: money and success which a typical city person will want the most.
I'm born in the city and I'm no different compared to a typical city people. I'm kia shu(scare to lose) and it really stress me out. Like Ker Ikr said,she feels so stress sitting near me because I always have at least a book by my side to study. Me too having this feeling. But I guess I managed to turn this feeling into a sense of motivation to work hard in my studies,which I lost since last year. I don't wish to over-feel to compete with people but to use those hardworking people as a role model of mine and move along in this competitive city life.
I'm shocked when one person ask me do have I entertainment cause I seem so hardworking for her. Come on...it's nonsense to think that I studied 24/7 without any entertainment. =.= My life is a bit more complicated than just studying...yeah just a bit more. lol...do homework,onlining,watch sports,sleeping(afternoon nap)...and if got time of coz I will study. BUT you see,my life aint all about study and succeed in exam.
I mean of course studies remain the priority in my life. And I always feel good when I do well in exam. Aint it normal? Maybe I do put myself in so much pressure,but as long as I'm doing what I like,isn't it that's the simplest life of my own? Instead of joining that society,that activity etc making me busy to do the thing I feel I want to do the most,which is study.
People might say I'm crazy because my life is so dull. Well,Isn't it dull kinda related to simple?
Well,I admited there's a lot of bs up thr. Just to write something out for no apparent reason.
No matter what,life goes on.
Off to study bio =P
I'm born in the city and I'm no different compared to a typical city people. I'm kia shu(scare to lose) and it really stress me out. Like Ker Ikr said,she feels so stress sitting near me because I always have at least a book by my side to study. Me too having this feeling. But I guess I managed to turn this feeling into a sense of motivation to work hard in my studies,which I lost since last year. I don't wish to over-feel to compete with people but to use those hardworking people as a role model of mine and move along in this competitive city life.
I'm shocked when one person ask me do have I entertainment cause I seem so hardworking for her. Come on...it's nonsense to think that I studied 24/7 without any entertainment. =.= My life is a bit more complicated than just studying...yeah just a bit more. lol...do homework,onlining,watch sports,sleeping(afternoon nap)...and if got time of coz I will study. BUT you see,my life aint all about study and succeed in exam.
I mean of course studies remain the priority in my life. And I always feel good when I do well in exam. Aint it normal? Maybe I do put myself in so much pressure,but as long as I'm doing what I like,isn't it that's the simplest life of my own? Instead of joining that society,that activity etc making me busy to do the thing I feel I want to do the most,which is study.
People might say I'm crazy because my life is so dull. Well,Isn't it dull kinda related to simple?
Well,I admited there's a lot of bs up thr. Just to write something out for no apparent reason.
No matter what,life goes on.
Off to study bio =P
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Be patient
I felt so jealous seeing so many couples around. It just added more desperation in myself that I want a relationship as well...the desperation of wanting to be love by someone. Shitty hormone effect I guess.
But I guess what she said is true. Desperation for love will do you no good. Just have to bear with it and wait for the right time.
Once it strikes you,you might tag along with it
Well,kinda true from her. For me,
Once it strikes you,you WILL tag along with it.
This is so true....muahahaha!
p.s. sorry for taking ur quotes and modify one from it for myself...xD
But I guess what she said is true. Desperation for love will do you no good. Just have to bear with it and wait for the right time.
Once it strikes you,you might tag along with it
Well,kinda true from her. For me,
Once it strikes you,you WILL tag along with it.
This is so true....muahahaha!
p.s. sorry for taking ur quotes and modify one from it for myself...xD
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
HATE IT...FUCK MY LIFE
Yeah,basically I hate almost everything in my life now.
Hate people talk who like as if he/she is the best person in the world
Hate people who act so fake,one minute they can depreciate you,the other second they will be good with you
Hate people who shows no respect to teacher
Hate that I can't get what I want
Hate the fact I knew I would enjoy form 4's life very much IF only for the fact that my 3 best peeps is still with me
Hate the feeling that I don't feel move on in form 4's life with 4 Angsana
Hate that I lost the motivation to study because I lost my 3 best peeps
Hate that when I saw my 3 best peeps happily together in other class while I'm all alone in the class which I dislikes to live with
Hate the feeling that my 3 best peeps are like almost invinsible in my life
Hate that I don't enjoy living my life at all
FUCK FORM 4 LIFE
FUCK 4 ANGSANA
FUCK MY LIFE!!!
Hate people talk who like as if he/she is the best person in the world
Hate people who act so fake,one minute they can depreciate you,the other second they will be good with you
Hate people who shows no respect to teacher
Hate that I can't get what I want
Hate the fact I knew I would enjoy form 4's life very much IF only for the fact that my 3 best peeps is still with me
Hate the feeling that I don't feel move on in form 4's life with 4 Angsana
Hate that I lost the motivation to study because I lost my 3 best peeps
Hate that when I saw my 3 best peeps happily together in other class while I'm all alone in the class which I dislikes to live with
Hate the feeling that my 3 best peeps are like almost invinsible in my life
Hate that I don't enjoy living my life at all
FUCK FORM 4 LIFE
FUCK 4 ANGSANA
FUCK MY LIFE!!!
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Sunday, April 4, 2010
What all these feelings mean?
2day I smiled to her and she grinned back me a smile. My heartbeat increased
2 weeks ago,she stand besides me around 10 minutes and I don't even dare to look at her.
Around 1 month ago,she sit besides me for 2 classes and I felt so empty.
In short,her presence makes me feel nervous/uncomfortable/excited.
What does all these feelings mean?
Jeff: I think you like or probably love her adi.
Well,I hope I like her just because she's too pretty for me.
p.s. Suffering from having the feeling of love to someone who is not even close to you. =(((
2 weeks ago,she stand besides me around 10 minutes and I don't even dare to look at her.
Around 1 month ago,she sit besides me for 2 classes and I felt so empty.
In short,her presence makes me feel nervous/uncomfortable/excited.
What does all these feelings mean?
Jeff: I think you like or probably love her adi.
Well,I hope I like her just because she's too pretty for me.
p.s. Suffering from having the feeling of love to someone who is not even close to you. =(((
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