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I realised when I think of studies it really freaks me out. The world feels so much wonderful whenever I just forgot about studies(in which pauline always ask me to) for a moment...ya...for a moment...when I'm going to bed. Guess probably it's because I don't feel nice with my class,so I guess it's no surprise that school and studies freak me out recently.

I also realised whenever I think of the fact that I lost my gang as my classmates,how suffering am I in almost every aspect in my life. Studies,friendship,human relationship and etc. Days passed without joys as I dun feel joyful with my current life. I had come to a conclusion the reason for all of these is because I lost the familiar faces in my life. How I wish I can just turn back in time,back to once wonderful time.

Ya,frankly I also realised if I keep talking about how unhappy is my life,people will be bored to read the same stories over and over again. And I would be emo again for stupid reason.

Let's talk about my suffering to strike a balance between co-curiculum and studies. I just dunno how to get a balance between both of that. I decided to go to the jamboree since it contains 17 koko marks but I need to pay a price for that. Jamboree starts 13 May to 15/16 May. And mid-term starts 17 May...which means I probably lost about 3 or 4 days chance to study for mid-term. And then comes another camp which the pengakap teachers asked me to join. The dunno-wat-lencana-ekspedisi-camp,which falls on 8 and 9 May. The teachers hope that I really can join the camp. It does bring me benefits as I can learn more thing and get more lencana for pengakap. But seriously,I'm already out of time to study for mid-term and I guess it's too late to do all those stuff now that I'm already 16 years old and facing a hectic SPM life. So,forgot about the camp on 8 to 9 May. Studies come 1st for me. lol

How proud am I to bring some new dimension for our school pengakap. One could imagine how sucky is our school pengakap be4 this year. People often ponteng or complain coming to pengakap is a waste of time. It's because our school pengakap is not active at all. Even the basic lencana exam our school also dun have. Feeling awkful for our school pengakap,I decided to give some suggestion to teacher that we start those exam this year. And I guess it started quite well. At least I guess pengakap aint that dull anymore with the introduction of those lencana exam. Hopefully,the pengakap member will be active with the activities that the AJK carry on.

Leaving the school matter,let me talk about the xue ji aka student reporter. Sorry to all the xue ge n xue jie but I still dun feel enjoy with the outdoor activities xue ji had. Mayb it's because of my studies or mayb it's because I'm not good at socialising or mayb becoz I dun feel good to get to know so many new frenz in my life in such a short time. But anyway,I will stay on no worry. AND! (it's kinda late to update about that) I got one of my article posted on the newspaper!!! Well,I really din think that will happen actually. Coz in order to get the xue ji certificate,one needs to send at least one article to xue ji guan huai and get two articles posted on the sin chew da du hui columm(simply spell). So I simply send one article to xue ji guan huai to start my interest in writing article for my xue ji. And it posted. YAY! lol...I wrote about Michael Schumacher. The theme is how he fare since rejoining F1.

To teenage's love problem. gosh,I feel I'm really stupid at how I treat my feeling to her. I actually scare of someone I think I like/get attracted to. She like a dark angel for me(so old style rite?). Dark symbolise I scare and angel symbolise that how pretty she is for me. And thx to my fren,I think she knew I like/get attracted to her,which makes me even scare/shy to see her. I just can't help it. It feels so awkful whenever I see her in tuition. Jeff said people happy to see hot chicks,but I scare to see pretty girl. How weird I am? =O

Let me see anything more to talk?...I guess tat's all I could talk. Guess this post will be enuf to satisfy my readers rite(ceh...talk like I had a big fan base on my blog only)?

Well,ming,I updated...PUAS!? haha

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